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ok. bascially i cant keep this in anymore and i am really tired of pretending. i am not ok with college , im scared of being eaten fucking alive by preppy rich kids who think automatically that because my shirt is from target and not j. crew and that my purse was on clearence at bobs and is not from like oh my god the louis vittoin store in italy, that we cant be friends. im sick of girls. the way they grill you and based on your looks or your clothes or who your standing next to they make a complete 360 judgement about who you are, and most of the time they just decide automatically that theyre better then you.
i honestly cant deal with that. its so fucking gay. i am nice to eeveryone and i at least give everyone a fair judgement period before i decide if i want to be close to them or not. im just so scared for c ollege that i wont fit in. at home i have friends ive had since i wa slittle so ive never had to deal with this shit. it makes me feel liek sometihng is wrong with me or im ugly or fat or whatever it is that these bitches decide about me. i honestly am so over it. at home i never feel insecure because i am so secure with my surroundings but the minute i steop onto the campus i feel like i have a bajillio and one blue eyed blond haired coach bag carrying bitches staring at me like im some kind of freak. Why does it have to be that way? why do people have to be judged and hurt by other peoples assumptions. i was really hurt. im so scared, scared out of my mind. once i get upset its so hard for me to look past wheatever it is im upset over and thats what im worried about in college is that ill get one or two wierd looks and ill be done. and the boys. oh man why dont you just clone one of you and then i could see all of you anwyays. fucking jcrew wearing jock with nothing better to do trhen drink beer and make out with the coach bag sluts. oh wait except were in college now so you get to freely spread STDs wheerver the fuck you want because your mommy and daddy arent here. fuck that shit. im sooooooooooo over that. i didnt expect college to be that way. its like high school the sequel and i dont want that. i want diversity and nice people. is that honestly too muhc to ask of people? fucking bitches go choke yourself with your dior sunglasses and prada sneakers and call me when you get some sense knocked into you about life and not ure fucking shletered selves rolling in money and "hot guys" right fuck you you fucking std bearing jcrew wearing SLUTS.
ok. im glad i got that out now. peace.
i honestly cant deal with that. its so fucking gay. i am nice to eeveryone and i at least give everyone a fair judgement period before i decide if i want to be close to them or not. im just so scared for c ollege that i wont fit in. at home i have friends ive had since i wa slittle so ive never had to deal with this shit. it makes me feel liek sometihng is wrong with me or im ugly or fat or whatever it is that these bitches decide about me. i honestly am so over it. at home i never feel insecure because i am so secure with my surroundings but the minute i steop onto the campus i feel like i have a bajillio and one blue eyed blond haired coach bag carrying bitches staring at me like im some kind of freak. Why does it have to be that way? why do people have to be judged and hurt by other peoples assumptions. i was really hurt. im so scared, scared out of my mind. once i get upset its so hard for me to look past wheatever it is im upset over and thats what im worried about in college is that ill get one or two wierd looks and ill be done. and the boys. oh man why dont you just clone one of you and then i could see all of you anwyays. fucking jcrew wearing jock with nothing better to do trhen drink beer and make out with the coach bag sluts. oh wait except were in college now so you get to freely spread STDs wheerver the fuck you want because your mommy and daddy arent here. fuck that shit. im sooooooooooo over that. i didnt expect college to be that way. its like high school the sequel and i dont want that. i want diversity and nice people. is that honestly too muhc to ask of people? fucking bitches go choke yourself with your dior sunglasses and prada sneakers and call me when you get some sense knocked into you about life and not ure fucking shletered selves rolling in money and "hot guys" right fuck you you fucking std bearing jcrew wearing SLUTS.
ok. im glad i got that out now. peace.