signs part deux!
It's getting to a point where I just smile, and go. It's ridiculous. I see the signs everywhere. Seriously, they're everywhere. I'll be reading something, watching a movie, or like yesterday I seen his mothers name at SUBWAY!!!?? Knowing his mothers name is another story, but anyway it's scary, exciting yet I don't know or how to react with them. Should I go ahead and just do something about it or should hope he has the guts to do it(assuming he feels the same) grrr. I know deeply that I would never say anything to him, but yesterday something in me wanted to. I swear, but then it came over me, and I couldn't believe I was thinking of doing it. What is wrong with me? But the signs are so obvious and I don't think I look for them. I mean they're just there. Today for example I was reading the back of a DVD and the his name pops up. Or I was watching The Hills and his last name as a city popped up, and the same city came up when I was reading a movie script. I don't understand is there something that is supposed to happen, and if yes when??!! Cause I want it to happen NOW.
I don't know why I like him, its lust mixed in with crushing, and being a girl. I don't know even know him. But I can't help it, and not wanting him to know is more exhausting than ever. I stare, but I'm sure 1. He notices and 2. He thinks I'm a weirdo. Playing it cool can back fire, and trying to stand out can make you look even dumber. So the answer is be myself, which is nerving. But then who is to say hes paying attention. I believe I'm given these signs for a reason, but I've been getting these for so long. Is it coincidence or fate. It just might go away.
p.s- im glad i got this off my chest.