my rant- and dont even try to understand
no one is going to understand this entry, you might as well skip over.
im so confusing!! i dont know how anyone can understand me because i dont understand myself! something is missing, and i dont know what...
im happy happy happy and then i think about the future and im sad, and then i cry (and i havent cried over life in a looong time, at least 5 years. i only cry during movies and books), and then the next time i see him, i act like i dont give shit about anything but i do!
all i know is that it's not enough.
gosh.
when will i know?
im so confusing!! i dont know how anyone can understand me because i dont understand myself! something is missing, and i dont know what...
im happy happy happy and then i think about the future and im sad, and then i cry (and i havent cried over life in a looong time, at least 5 years. i only cry during movies and books), and then the next time i see him, i act like i dont give shit about anything but i do!
all i know is that it's not enough.
gosh.
when will i know?