i don't even know what to say...

[smile_silent]

this has never happened to me before. i have never had death in my life besides my great grandparents that were old and expected to die. i have never had someone close to me just die. when the cops came to the house asking for her parents number, i knew it was bad. her friend blue died about 3 months ago and we had a deep conversation about it. she said that no one should feel bad for blue because he's fine and he's in a better place. she said when her time came she didn't want people to be sad about it, but to think about all the good times we had with her. anyone who knows her knows that she was one of the nicest people on the earth. she could undertand anyone and she only wanted to be the big, happy, wonderful girl she was. i wish there was something i could have done. she was such a smart girl who knew exaclty what she wanted to do with her life. i know she would make an amazing teacher and wife...she knew how to cook...ha. but i'm going to try my best to do as she wishes and remember the good times and know she is fine and in heaven hanging out with blue right now.

I LOVE YOU NICOLE CURTIS. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED AND MISSED. i know i'll see you again someday.