oh dear god, I don't feel alive when you're cut
Take me away...
The monotony is setting in, and I realized something...I hate monotony. I don't know how I'm going to live my life with one job, one home and possibly one family. I may go insane and start raising pole-cats or something. Crazy Monty Python referrences.
Going on that same theme, I often feel so out of place with all my peers and my family. I don't really want to get married have 2.5 kids a house and a steady job. Suburbia kind of scares me and I wish there was some other kind of normality. I don't want to have to go to 6 years of college to acheive a job that I may change in 5 to ten years. I want change and...happiness, not what's normal. I'm not saying I don't value those things; a good job, a monogomous relationship, cute little kids, it's all good. I just don't know if I can achieve that and be satisfied with who I am and where I am. I'd rather fall in love at my own discretion, I don't want the pressure of marriage, I'd rather enjoy children rather than contemplate killing the ones I birthed. Oh well. Someday I will be 40 years old and desperate for all the things I poo-poo on right now. Am I insane?
Ohhhhoho Coheed and Cambria...you...complete me.
My comma and period keys are sticky and I don't know why.
I fell asleep in both my classes today...But thankfully I only have one class on tomorrow (or today as it's 2 in the morning) and Friday, although I'm bummed poetry was cancled, that professor rocks my body...I might have to seduce him.
"we're now up here alone terror on the intercom can someone save us
systems malfunction blast it this damn machine over and out captain
something lurks creeps on the counter top somewhere behind you
parasitic cyst i can't stand to watch it's coming up and out of your chest"
-Coheed and Cambria is sexy and don't even try to tell me different. Fools.
Rachy2Sing: i think i need to hit rock bottom and turn a new leaf
Rachy2Sing: because this mediocrity business is no ones friend