i am the girl who's carefree and loves sublime

[smile_my_love]

good ol' highschool. i never really expected it to be like this. everyones highschool's different and everyone has different opinions about it. i, for one, think it's all about finding yourself. you can hate the whole student body, being an outcast and/or bitch. you can act as if only your clique exists because you think you're better than everyone. you can spend your time studying and reading, which would put you under the 'geek' category. some decide to change who they are to be accepted into certain groups, in order to be popular or just fit in. doing so, you will struggle to be happy, and will do anything to impress these people who are your 'friends.' i wonder if some girls thrive on fighting and drama, to draw attention to themselves, and find a way to pass the time. you can obsorb yourself in after school sports and activities, making friends during this process. some choose to work, varying from everyday after school to once a week, depending on money situations, priorities, and age. some spend every waking moment worrying about their hair and if this makes them look fat. these people are simply wasting their time. some waste their life away on drugs, in order to make them artificially happy for the time being, because they have something missing in their life. others do drugs to rebel and some just want to fit in. everyone in highschool wants to have a place. some are shy and have a difficult time meeting people because it takes time for them to get over a 'barrier' of their shyness. some people go out of their way to go against authority. these are the rioter's who often intimidate people. i am not one of these intimidated people.

i am the the girl who's carefree and loves sublime.

i see an example of everyone of these types of people everyday. i will not allow myself to become 'just another teenage drama queen.' i am self-contious, but not vain. i dont shun someone because he or she isnt popular. i will not conform to what others want me to be. i dont believe any one person is better than the next. ive made many mistakes, but never one i didnt learn something from. i look for the best in everyone. i will do anything to make someone smile. i am recovered from many things i wish to not voice. i may be a problematic child, but i have a good heart. this is who i have chosen to be. <3 roach