hmm..
last night was a good time. went to the mall with blt, ashleigh and erin and cashed out.. mom wouldnt give me money so i had no choice. gawd its fun hanging out with them. never a dull moment.
anyways, im nervous about finals. my parents expect so much outta me. grades are everything, i wish i wasnt stressed. on top of it, someone is saying embarassing shit about me and made me cry today. i wish guys weren't asses. lately, @ school i've felt really hollow. its weird, i feel like im just there. im slipping back into old habits and its not fun. i hate feeling like this, but i feel helpless.
tomorrow, i think afterschool im sposed to go to lifetime. idk if i will tho. i need to chill with brent sometime soon 2. i never see or talk to him anymore.
andy said he was going to call me a WEEK ago. he makes me feel so loved. i dont see how he can say im why he hasn't let go of lith and do that. i really want to call him but im not going to. im worried about him. i wish he knew how worried i am. he can make me have a smile from ear to ear and cry by his actions. i cant seem to let 'us' go. i dont know why, its only hurting me. maybe thats what love is? well, he still says that were getting married by an elvis midget impersonator.. now THAT would make my life worthwhile.
im done bitching, i just needed to get some stuff off my chest before i breakdown.
erin, blt, ashleigh: best mall buddies..
anyways, im nervous about finals. my parents expect so much outta me. grades are everything, i wish i wasnt stressed. on top of it, someone is saying embarassing shit about me and made me cry today. i wish guys weren't asses. lately, @ school i've felt really hollow. its weird, i feel like im just there. im slipping back into old habits and its not fun. i hate feeling like this, but i feel helpless.
tomorrow, i think afterschool im sposed to go to lifetime. idk if i will tho. i need to chill with brent sometime soon 2. i never see or talk to him anymore.
andy said he was going to call me a WEEK ago. he makes me feel so loved. i dont see how he can say im why he hasn't let go of lith and do that. i really want to call him but im not going to. im worried about him. i wish he knew how worried i am. he can make me have a smile from ear to ear and cry by his actions. i cant seem to let 'us' go. i dont know why, its only hurting me. maybe thats what love is? well, he still says that were getting married by an elvis midget impersonator.. now THAT would make my life worthwhile.
im done bitching, i just needed to get some stuff off my chest before i breakdown.
erin, blt, ashleigh: best mall buddies..