today on Sally: SURPrize! its the mailmans baby! not yours day!!
i miss people when their gone....... miss them when there here too. but i miss them when their gone......* miss you jennifer* things arent the same. i miss so much. im not sad or upset. but missing. not depressed but missing.. i dont even know what im trying to say . it doesnt even make sence. do you ever get this weird feeling, where you dont feel good, you dont feel bad. everything in your life is fine. not great, not horrible. but fine. your just kind of still. still and empty.
i miss having funn, and laughing till my belly hurts. now it seems to all be about drinking and boys. thats where the funn is. but i just want to have a day with my friends thats just about simple funn. nothing complicated. just have funn with them and laugh.
for some reason im kind of sad, it happens every year around the end of the year. lol i get sad becasue people are leaving and everythings going to change. when i went to the coffee house and heard jake and brett sing . it upset me i wanted to cry so bad. i dunno hwy they where awesome!! but i love those kids and im freaking out because summers coming and i wont ever see anyone!!
i dont want to go to grade 11!! i dont want the grade 11's to go to grade 12!! and i dont want th egrade 12's to leave!! i think thats why im upset because there leaving and i dont want them to,im scared and i dont want anything to change!! im going to miss them!!! i miss them and there still here.
i need a hug!!! 17 hugs a day actually,lol clm class. but thats not what im asking for, im asking for someone to hug me out of the blue. for no reason. no reason what so ever. just because they care. just because they actually care. no reason in paticular but caring. that would make my life awesome!! but people never do that, i dunno why. so its my new journey. to hug everyone i care about . because sometimes when its just that really bad day, if i had a hug then it might have helped. does anyone else here need a hug?
i dont even know what all that ramballing about hugs was.
some people really hurt me i dunno why there trying to, or why they would want to hurt. the person i care about when they supposeabliy love me. when you love someone you dont go out of your way to purposely hurt that person and the people she cares about. some people are dumb. and i regret a lot of stuff now a days. which makes me mad. because no matter what, this was the type of thing i told myself i would never regret. my motto is to never regret anything you do. learn from things. but wishing away the past is almost as bad as forgetting the future. but im filled with tons of regret about things. which makes me mad.
anyways those were my stupid feelings for the night. this is my first journal entry sence like 1985.......but it made me feel better, i think. or not . o well. comment.
i miss having funn, and laughing till my belly hurts. now it seems to all be about drinking and boys. thats where the funn is. but i just want to have a day with my friends thats just about simple funn. nothing complicated. just have funn with them and laugh.
for some reason im kind of sad, it happens every year around the end of the year. lol i get sad becasue people are leaving and everythings going to change. when i went to the coffee house and heard jake and brett sing . it upset me i wanted to cry so bad. i dunno hwy they where awesome!! but i love those kids and im freaking out because summers coming and i wont ever see anyone!!
i dont want to go to grade 11!! i dont want the grade 11's to go to grade 12!! and i dont want th egrade 12's to leave!! i think thats why im upset because there leaving and i dont want them to,im scared and i dont want anything to change!! im going to miss them!!! i miss them and there still here.
i need a hug!!! 17 hugs a day actually,lol clm class. but thats not what im asking for, im asking for someone to hug me out of the blue. for no reason. no reason what so ever. just because they care. just because they actually care. no reason in paticular but caring. that would make my life awesome!! but people never do that, i dunno why. so its my new journey. to hug everyone i care about . because sometimes when its just that really bad day, if i had a hug then it might have helped. does anyone else here need a hug?
i dont even know what all that ramballing about hugs was.
some people really hurt me i dunno why there trying to, or why they would want to hurt. the person i care about when they supposeabliy love me. when you love someone you dont go out of your way to purposely hurt that person and the people she cares about. some people are dumb. and i regret a lot of stuff now a days. which makes me mad. because no matter what, this was the type of thing i told myself i would never regret. my motto is to never regret anything you do. learn from things. but wishing away the past is almost as bad as forgetting the future. but im filled with tons of regret about things. which makes me mad.
anyways those were my stupid feelings for the night. this is my first journal entry sence like 1985.......but it made me feel better, i think. or not . o well. comment.