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well...
I'm finally 18 and i have officially graduated highschool. Im headed off to the JC and here starts my adult life. scary.
It was such an incredible feeling going up there and getting the diploma. Like a feeling that a finally accomplished something real, that i can hold in my hand and show to people and be like "look i fucking did it". I feel like i never accomplish anything and now i can feel like i finally did. Not to mention its an incredible weight lifted off your shoulders not having to worry about credits and stuff.
My friends situation has some what changed. i guess i started hanging out with nicks friends more because it seems like all my friends hated nick. Which sucks cause hes not even a bad guy, but they all think im crazy for thinking that cause hes horrible. whatever i guess. I dont want to be in the situation where i choose because personally i dont think a friend should even put you in that situation. Ya they can tell me i think im making a mistake and end it there but it seemed like everyone would thrive on that mistake and try to push me towards the decision they wanted. And other friends just started hanging out with eachother and didnt call me or anything because im "always with nick" so whatever i guess. i guess you dont have to say hi to me at senior breakfast and write in my SENIOR YEARBOOK that you hope that im ALLOWED to hang out with you, cause to me thats just fucked up and you didnt need to write that in my senior yearbook where i can look back and just remember the situation with us. And also someone else wrote "im sorry things ended the way they did" which hurt because i was just left there to wonder "since when were we over? did you decide this?" i dont know. I guess things will work out and unfold on their own if they are meant to be there
I might get another new job. ya i know. but hey being a receptionist for 3 days a week (no weekends) and making $10 an hour sounds a hell of a lot better than my job.
CONGRADULATIONS CLASS OF 2007! HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!
I'm finally 18 and i have officially graduated highschool. Im headed off to the JC and here starts my adult life. scary.
It was such an incredible feeling going up there and getting the diploma. Like a feeling that a finally accomplished something real, that i can hold in my hand and show to people and be like "look i fucking did it". I feel like i never accomplish anything and now i can feel like i finally did. Not to mention its an incredible weight lifted off your shoulders not having to worry about credits and stuff.
My friends situation has some what changed. i guess i started hanging out with nicks friends more because it seems like all my friends hated nick. Which sucks cause hes not even a bad guy, but they all think im crazy for thinking that cause hes horrible. whatever i guess. I dont want to be in the situation where i choose because personally i dont think a friend should even put you in that situation. Ya they can tell me i think im making a mistake and end it there but it seemed like everyone would thrive on that mistake and try to push me towards the decision they wanted. And other friends just started hanging out with eachother and didnt call me or anything because im "always with nick" so whatever i guess. i guess you dont have to say hi to me at senior breakfast and write in my SENIOR YEARBOOK that you hope that im ALLOWED to hang out with you, cause to me thats just fucked up and you didnt need to write that in my senior yearbook where i can look back and just remember the situation with us. And also someone else wrote "im sorry things ended the way they did" which hurt because i was just left there to wonder "since when were we over? did you decide this?" i dont know. I guess things will work out and unfold on their own if they are meant to be there
I might get another new job. ya i know. but hey being a receptionist for 3 days a week (no weekends) and making $10 an hour sounds a hell of a lot better than my job.
CONGRADULATIONS CLASS OF 2007! HOPE TO SEE YOU SOON!