Personal Update 2018.04.05
Hey guys!
Wow, look, I'm posting! I'm not dead!
-enter the Surprise Bitch meme here-
So.... how have you been?
It's been a crazy year for me. And I say that in the sense that I haven't posted anything to LJ in over a year...
...sorry...
I've had a lot going on.
First, I have a boyfriend!
(gasp! 'What?! Smile has a boyfriend?! OMG!')
He's awesome and amazing and surprisingly supportive of my weird love of all things Arashi. He did say though that I'm not allowed to hang up my Arashi posters in the house....
Second, I moved in with him!
Long story short, I was living with my mother but she decided to move to California and left me here. I did have a place of my own with her, but my third point explains why that is not happening anymore...
Third, I got a new job!
Basically, the job I was working at closed down. My wonderful preschool filled with amazing children and staff no longer exists. We were a Christian preschool sponsored by a church, and long story short the church no longer wanted to help us out anymore and we didn't have the money to keep going.
(Although if you ask me, it just feels like the pastor just didn't want to deal with the preschool anymore and decided to just dump everyone out on the street because of this sole reason. He gave us three months notice. So yeah.)
I was one of the first teachers to go based on how long I had been there. My last day was November 2nd, and I have to say that tearing down my classroom and saying one final goodbye to my kids is one of those days I wish I could just erase from memory. It's so painful to even think about that school and it's beauty and how it was just destroyed. Needless to say, I no longer attend that church (it was my home church, so that added extra pain), and I've kind of been in a spiritual limbo ever since.
I'm working now though, but for about two months I was struggling part time at a local movie theatre, but it wasn't enough to pay the bills. I'm happy to say though that I am at a new preschool with a new class, and while it's not the same, I'm slowly accepting that painful fact that it's not where I love, but I can make this place just as good if I really try. It's getting better.
So because of all this job stuff happening and Mom leaving to California, we decided to officially move out of the house I was in with Mom and decided to move in with my boyfriend. And OMG I have never been happier! The place I'm in now feels so much like home. There was no adjusting to a new place feeling!
I'm also happy to report that I have never been on better terms with Dad! I know in my last personal update, things were really rocky, but now we have such a happy relationship that I'm actually thankful that I went through the tough time. We can talk now. We have lunch together at least once a week. And his girlfriend... oh my gosh she is such a sweetheart! She's adorable! I love her so much! I cannot wait until the wedding!
(If only things were like that with my mother and her boyfriend)
I feel like I'm starting to finally get back on my feet. For now, at least, my depression has started to subside. For a while, all I did was cry. Now I'm starting to be happy again! I'm starting to finally be myself again!
WHICH IS WHY I'M HERE!
I don't know if I'll finish my HSJ story, but I have a brand new story idea that I cannot wait to start writing! If you read this and then the new story, I think you'll know where my inspiration comes from.
Not all of my time writing is going to be spent here though. Don't forget, I still have all my personal stories to write up too! But I will be updating more! I'M SO EXCITED!
(Also, I graduated college so I now don't have homework as an excuse anymore xD )
I have missed you all.
And I cannot wait to see if anyone is still left on here after all this time!
Love from your favorite Smile <3
Smile-Arigatou
(also, since when did LJ and Photobucket change all their shit!? Now I gotta remake and fix my page and UGH! Oh well, time for an update!)