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i've decided...well, i decided it along time ago, that this 2 month winter break is dumb. it may be great for some people, but being here a week or more earlier than everyone else, then leaving a month to one week later than everyone else isn't something i'm jumping for joy about. i'm ready to head back to good ol' udel. i'm going to have my room most likely to myself once i get back for the rest of the semester since my amazing roommate decided to be cool and bounce. whatev...she needs to be happy. i'm gonna miss her tho. at least i have my suitemate maya who, together, we have agreed on being roommates next year. hopefully in the towers (apartment style living). being back in connecticut has not been the greatest, but not the worst thing ever...but definitely lower on the scale. i realized there's very few people i'm really going to keep in contact throughout college, maybe life...and even possibly just until next year. i have (almost) made the decision to live in delaware for the summer. get a job. and have my house to myself. my mom supports it and would rather me be down there, because i have a plan, and i will know people down there, and because of simple fact of how much connecticut and i don't agree with eachother. i think it'll be good for me. i hope it will be at least. supposedly this philosophy online course is supposed to be good for me, but who knows. i'm hoping to do well. its totally different taking a class online...i'm not sure if i like it all that much. whatev, i'll pass, get 3 credits, and be that much closer to fulfilling my requirements. the holidays were different. good i suppose, but different. traditions are no longer in tact and my whole family is going through so many changes that it's impossible for anything to remain remotely the same. i'm included in that. i went to florida for the past several days with my cousin ben to visit my grandparents. it was a good trip...not a typical teenager's trip to florida. but it was worth it to spend some time with my grandparents and being in warmer weather. of course the first day that i'm back here, it snows for the first time basically. ridiculous. i went with ben to visit ben pask today in prison. that was rough for me. but it was good seeing him. i think i'm going to make a plan to go every week to see him until i go back. maybe twice one week. he's a good friend...more like family, and i never in my life thought i'd be visiting him in jail, let alone anyone i know. my life is crazy...i know everyone's got their own things but life is just hitting me in the face over these weeks of vacation. opening my eyes to what really matters, to people in my life, and to where i want and need to be. i'm changing again...no doubt. just when i thought i was set in who i was, the winds change. but that's normal i guess. change is the most constant part of life...