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i have no even written in this thing since a week before i graduated.
so here's the update.
-graduation day: it was good. at rehearsal, i cried and had to sit on seth's lap. i cried at graduation too. i know it's definitely the last time i will ever see some people again, which sucks...but i guess that's how it goes. i got a flat tire driving home at like 4 in the morning that next morning...that sucked.
-orientation: it just made me want to go to school that much more. i'm ready. and by now, i feel it's the only thing that will save me from this place.
-working: eh. i work. because i need money. it's not the worst place...but i wish i could work somewhere and meet new people...but it's summer time, i work at the beach and get paid to sit on by butt for 8.50. i really can't complain. it's just drama, ya know.
-delaware: i've been down once really this summer...and i want to be down there more. i could have gone there to live and work for the summer, but for some reason i stayed here. dumb? i can't really tell. it's just relaxing and so easy going down there and lets me just forget about everything up here in CT. i only hate going down there because i end up driving for 2 days and having one whole day down there and end up in a bad mood because i know i have to go right to work several hours after i get home. i'll hopefully go down more this summer...really.
-summer: i'm going to a bunch of great concerts over the next few weeks. i saw my first dave matthew's concert at fenway park with skippy. it was good times. i'm going to another one with skippy at the meadows. it should be great and plus everyone goes so i'm bound to see a bunch of people i know. jack's mannequin and oar are playing in august, and i'm seeing them. super excited. seeing ringo starr tonight with my mama. yay. the def leppard and journey show was good. the lead singer in journey butchered some of the songs, but def leppard made it all better when they played their best show i've seen from them. i'm going to see the deftones and korn the friday of the week i start school with joey in jersey. not gonna lie, it's not gonna be my favorite show, but he's wanted me to go. and it's his favorite band. and his birthday right around that time so happy birthday to him. other that concerts...generally hanging out with friends and family. this summer isn't too exciting. nothing great has happened...not gonna say that bad things haven't happened. to sum it up...my graduation party was a family disaster...i got stuck in the middle for no reason. there's still a bit of tension. there's been so much stupid crap going on at work that i just makes me want to leave that place. joe is moving back to new jersey. it bothers me...but i know it's best for him...hell, i told him to go back. he and i are in the same boat, there's nothing here for us anymore [individually]. othere than that stuff...i assume i have been sleeping.
i guess that's where i'm at. i'm ready to go. i'm ready for something new. i'm tired of my life being boring and almost the same thing every day. i'm done with everything here. to some people that may sound harsh, but it's the truth. i've been done for a while now. people from sound...i wish...but i doubt i'll see again...even people like neil which is weird. everyone is going away this summer...i can't even get a vacation for 3 whole days. i wish i could quit my job. go to delaware. and live and know i'll be happy. but i'm not taking that risk and possibly end up being more lonely there than i am here.
so here's the update.
-graduation day: it was good. at rehearsal, i cried and had to sit on seth's lap. i cried at graduation too. i know it's definitely the last time i will ever see some people again, which sucks...but i guess that's how it goes. i got a flat tire driving home at like 4 in the morning that next morning...that sucked.
-orientation: it just made me want to go to school that much more. i'm ready. and by now, i feel it's the only thing that will save me from this place.
-working: eh. i work. because i need money. it's not the worst place...but i wish i could work somewhere and meet new people...but it's summer time, i work at the beach and get paid to sit on by butt for 8.50. i really can't complain. it's just drama, ya know.
-delaware: i've been down once really this summer...and i want to be down there more. i could have gone there to live and work for the summer, but for some reason i stayed here. dumb? i can't really tell. it's just relaxing and so easy going down there and lets me just forget about everything up here in CT. i only hate going down there because i end up driving for 2 days and having one whole day down there and end up in a bad mood because i know i have to go right to work several hours after i get home. i'll hopefully go down more this summer...really.
-summer: i'm going to a bunch of great concerts over the next few weeks. i saw my first dave matthew's concert at fenway park with skippy. it was good times. i'm going to another one with skippy at the meadows. it should be great and plus everyone goes so i'm bound to see a bunch of people i know. jack's mannequin and oar are playing in august, and i'm seeing them. super excited. seeing ringo starr tonight with my mama. yay. the def leppard and journey show was good. the lead singer in journey butchered some of the songs, but def leppard made it all better when they played their best show i've seen from them. i'm going to see the deftones and korn the friday of the week i start school with joey in jersey. not gonna lie, it's not gonna be my favorite show, but he's wanted me to go. and it's his favorite band. and his birthday right around that time so happy birthday to him. other that concerts...generally hanging out with friends and family. this summer isn't too exciting. nothing great has happened...not gonna say that bad things haven't happened. to sum it up...my graduation party was a family disaster...i got stuck in the middle for no reason. there's still a bit of tension. there's been so much stupid crap going on at work that i just makes me want to leave that place. joe is moving back to new jersey. it bothers me...but i know it's best for him...hell, i told him to go back. he and i are in the same boat, there's nothing here for us anymore [individually]. othere than that stuff...i assume i have been sleeping.
i guess that's where i'm at. i'm ready to go. i'm ready for something new. i'm tired of my life being boring and almost the same thing every day. i'm done with everything here. to some people that may sound harsh, but it's the truth. i've been done for a while now. people from sound...i wish...but i doubt i'll see again...even people like neil which is weird. everyone is going away this summer...i can't even get a vacation for 3 whole days. i wish i could quit my job. go to delaware. and live and know i'll be happy. but i'm not taking that risk and possibly end up being more lonely there than i am here.