not sorry its over
its amazing what turn of events could cause someone to
change their minds so quickly about how they
want their future to end up...
there was some part of me that wanted to end up
here...maybe a piece of my heart.
scared to leave the good behind. but if theres one
thing i learned this weekend from my sister..
is that..sometimes, the best and closest of people
could be the ones you choose to set aside and forget
about. that these problems you have during ur high
school years are nothing but wasted time
spent crying...adding stress to your already complicated
life. the fact of the matter is that, everyone
you come in contact with in high school, really only
matter in high school. once ur free.. its all over..
yess you have your few you keep in touch...but ae u
honestly going to sit there and tell me that you have spoken to
all or most of the people in ur class since the day you left?
you got to be kidding yourself. because you come to realize
that most of the friends you had were only ur friends
for that time being..the someone who would walk with you
to class or sit with you at lunch..help you cheat when you had
a major test...everyone is merely a temp..taking up
space on ur phone list. dont get me wrong
i love the friends i have been blessed with and yeah honestly
it will be sad to say goodbye...but..im GLAD that i am..
im tired..of the waiting..the saying sorries for trivial matters..
the drama...the boys..the girls..everyone..
i want to live somewhere where no one judges you
on ur past because they have a past as well..
i want to start all over...be myself..not have to deal
with liers, faggots that throw condoms up in the air like
it were money...
i know im not perfect...but at least i didnt make myself look
like a jackass in front of the world..
theres another thing...i hate that i let YOU above
everyone else get the best of me..
i let you back in when the door could have been locked..
i let you hurt me in unspeakable ways and call me things
without me giving a care...i despise YOU...i hate that i actually feel
this disgust for a person but im happy at the fact that its for YOU
and not for someone else that doesnt deserve it..
i let YOU be my world and i am so mad at myself for letting it happen..
but now that its finally over and i did what i did
with NO regrets! no sympathy for YOU..im glad that i can no longer
hear your voice..see your face...feel anything...all YOU are
is vapor...a ghost..i dont want to know you..YOU dont exist..
anything i have ever felt for YOU i burned with all the
things that reminded me of what an idiot i was when i was letting
you back in every time...
my soul is now at peace..i dont have to put up with YOU anymore..
all i can do ... all i choose to do is wish you well..and GOD bless..
that is it.. you will get nothin from me ever.. not a word.. not even a glance..
YOU dont deserve NOTHING from me...
and yesss...
im feeling this
and saying this
with a smile..
because...its finally over...
change their minds so quickly about how they
want their future to end up...
there was some part of me that wanted to end up
here...maybe a piece of my heart.
scared to leave the good behind. but if theres one
thing i learned this weekend from my sister..
is that..sometimes, the best and closest of people
could be the ones you choose to set aside and forget
about. that these problems you have during ur high
school years are nothing but wasted time
spent crying...adding stress to your already complicated
life. the fact of the matter is that, everyone
you come in contact with in high school, really only
matter in high school. once ur free.. its all over..
yess you have your few you keep in touch...but ae u
honestly going to sit there and tell me that you have spoken to
all or most of the people in ur class since the day you left?
you got to be kidding yourself. because you come to realize
that most of the friends you had were only ur friends
for that time being..the someone who would walk with you
to class or sit with you at lunch..help you cheat when you had
a major test...everyone is merely a temp..taking up
space on ur phone list. dont get me wrong
i love the friends i have been blessed with and yeah honestly
it will be sad to say goodbye...but..im GLAD that i am..
im tired..of the waiting..the saying sorries for trivial matters..
the drama...the boys..the girls..everyone..
i want to live somewhere where no one judges you
on ur past because they have a past as well..
i want to start all over...be myself..not have to deal
with liers, faggots that throw condoms up in the air like
it were money...
i know im not perfect...but at least i didnt make myself look
like a jackass in front of the world..
theres another thing...i hate that i let YOU above
everyone else get the best of me..
i let you back in when the door could have been locked..
i let you hurt me in unspeakable ways and call me things
without me giving a care...i despise YOU...i hate that i actually feel
this disgust for a person but im happy at the fact that its for YOU
and not for someone else that doesnt deserve it..
i let YOU be my world and i am so mad at myself for letting it happen..
but now that its finally over and i did what i did
with NO regrets! no sympathy for YOU..im glad that i can no longer
hear your voice..see your face...feel anything...all YOU are
is vapor...a ghost..i dont want to know you..YOU dont exist..
anything i have ever felt for YOU i burned with all the
things that reminded me of what an idiot i was when i was letting
you back in every time...
my soul is now at peace..i dont have to put up with YOU anymore..
all i can do ... all i choose to do is wish you well..and GOD bless..
that is it.. you will get nothin from me ever.. not a word.. not even a glance..
YOU dont deserve NOTHING from me...
and yesss...
im feeling this
and saying this
with a smile..
because...its finally over...