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my mom bought me a house... and i moved clear across the country... i bought a dog (the first pet i have ever had on my own)... i am doing a fine job of taking care of my house and my dog and adam on top of that... i turned 18 so now i am a legal adult... how many 18 year old people can move across the country away from everything and everyone they have known for at least the last 9 years, be given a house and a dog, and be able to take care of all of it with out killing or burning down anything? i think that i am pretty impressive.
and another thing...
i did a lot the past 8 years to keep my family together to make them better... and it never really worked... nothing ever got fixed... the stress of that is part of the reason i decided to move out here... and now i am gone and everything has fallen into place... my mom is now putting time and energy and love into my sisters... the things they always wanted but i could never give them because i didnt know how to... they are all going to church after i bugged them for 3 years to come with me and they almost never did... my sisters are happy and they miss me and i have never felt so loved by my family... but i have to be gone for all of this to happen... it doesnt make since to me... why did i have to leave for the puzzle pieces to fall into place... it is nice now to see that my hard work and my stress has somewhat payed off... my family is happy... that is all i ever wanted.
and one more thing...
i think people are confused by me... i am not your typical 18 year old... i have a house... i can take care of it and myself... i have a lot of wisdom that i believe was only bestowed upon me by chance... i dont do drugs... i dont drink... i dont party... i know how to take care of myself... but i am 18... people dont know what to do with that... if i am left to be who i want to be i do not feel 18... people have this effect though of tearing me down and making me feel like i am 18... i dont like it... because i am not like you... dont make me like you.
and after all of that...
i am happy.
pEacE. lovE. joy. happinEss.