Roots

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I hate that family can hurt you worse than anyone else in the world. These people that love you and are supposed to support you are the ones that flay you alive from time to time. I left a man for treating me like that, so why can't I tell a relative (my uncle/father) to stop. Even my sister admitted that he treated me like crap this past monday. Not only did he imply that I was a pig, but that I was ignorant and illiterate and that what I did read was trash at best. It was all I could do not to put my face in the place and snort around my food just so he could finally say that I was a pig to my face, instead of implying it by how much I weigh and how much I like to eat out. Mmmm, I wonder who it was that first implied that eating out was preferable to eating the food I cooked. When I reminded him that he used to read hardy Boy mysteries, that was different...those were adventures. I guess he hasn't read many of the books I have...the ones on holistic medicine or medical coding, gnosticism or sociology. It hurts and I can't just not have anything to do with him, so I have to continue to be hurt.

My therapist thinks I should try to sit down and have a discussion with him. I don't know how. He doesn't take anything I say seriously, treats me with scorn and then sends me home almost in tears. I hate the way he makes me feel. I have tried to stand up to him. It doesn't work. He doesn't remember when I've done things. From his accounting, I've never done anything that made him proud. *sigh* I guess in his eyes, I haven't.

I have other bitches too. I'll bring them online later. But for right now...Screw you, Uncle.