Mad night!!! unfair world??? oh well!!!
Its best to write when your drunk , as then its a form of art... well, thats my drunken opinion...
its sunday 25th July 2004, AD... Christian of course.... tho i aint....
infact, the only reason i live by dates are because my life depends on them...
Damn that...
So i never properly said hi to **********, or ***********, and things seemed a little werid.... im pretty sure now they are trying to avoid me...
and im pretty sure now that im oversensetive...
Things r clear to me now... Clear as night (only cuz the sun aint out - its 2afrikkinM.)
Tennis 2moro i do hope... shud b fun... Classic FM rox after a nite out....
well not rox, but it really is great :)
Time will tell all... One day i'll know just why... Why everything is the way it is, and why everything just plain old IS.
That day aint soon... at all...
my heart full of so much, but no one seems to make the real effort to notice me... I just dont exist.
Nostalgic memories of crazy but fun times... times where i was abused, but i realise now the truth of it all... i shouldv stayed... i know now...
i'm scared, lonley, and.... dunno.... i need company, i need attention...... thats why me personality cries out for it.... in EVERY way...
it never deliveres what i want...
This is so so crazy, my chest just wants to expand and combust...
I wish people knew the real me... as they know themselves...
Theres so much to happen scince the "9 11" of my life... i guess thats what you could call it...
Really is too much to tell, will give you the story of the last few months of my life when i get the chance!!!
Nicco!
BTW - I've never felt so..... non-existant? like every1 ingores me... took 30 mins to get served at the bar 2nite after 10 mins i was like "Hello! Over here xuse me!" heheheh o well! x
its sunday 25th July 2004, AD... Christian of course.... tho i aint....
infact, the only reason i live by dates are because my life depends on them...
Damn that...
So i never properly said hi to **********, or ***********, and things seemed a little werid.... im pretty sure now they are trying to avoid me...
and im pretty sure now that im oversensetive...
Things r clear to me now... Clear as night (only cuz the sun aint out - its 2afrikkinM.)
Tennis 2moro i do hope... shud b fun... Classic FM rox after a nite out....
well not rox, but it really is great :)
Time will tell all... One day i'll know just why... Why everything is the way it is, and why everything just plain old IS.
That day aint soon... at all...
my heart full of so much, but no one seems to make the real effort to notice me... I just dont exist.
Nostalgic memories of crazy but fun times... times where i was abused, but i realise now the truth of it all... i shouldv stayed... i know now...
i'm scared, lonley, and.... dunno.... i need company, i need attention...... thats why me personality cries out for it.... in EVERY way...
it never deliveres what i want...
This is so so crazy, my chest just wants to expand and combust...
I wish people knew the real me... as they know themselves...
Theres so much to happen scince the "9 11" of my life... i guess thats what you could call it...
Really is too much to tell, will give you the story of the last few months of my life when i get the chance!!!
Nicco!
BTW - I've never felt so..... non-existant? like every1 ingores me... took 30 mins to get served at the bar 2nite after 10 mins i was like "Hello! Over here xuse me!" heheheh o well! x