Colder than cold... Darker than dark...
The last few weeks- They've been some of the toughest of my life.
Each night is a new battle that is being waged inside me.
My heart is cold, my body freezing, my mind lost.
There's not ever been a way to express my feelings with words. But only with actions.
There is so much of me that is SHOUTING to me "NO"
I cant let what will happen happen, i dont want to lose THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE.
But theres nothing i can do but sit back, and watch them fall.
Be there for if and when it does.
Time is taking its toll on me, the deep wounds grow into scarrs that give you strength, but that will never go away.
Just a few seconds of misery is enough to darken a whole day of light.
But each day that i spent alongside her, was a day of light.
There really are no words to explain how i feel.
I feel torn between two worlds, one was the world i thought i had left when i met her, and the other is the world that i was in when i met her.
Its obvious to me what i want.
Its everything i've ever dreamt of...
I'm fed up of fighting, im tired of losing when everything in you trys for something to the point of having nothing left for yourself.
Theres just so much to say, but not enough words.
All i can say is that i've been honourable, and honest.
- : here is a poem that might say the rest : -
The Prettifull Light
Born on the shadow of doubt,
that was created by the darkness of the past.
our intentions mutual,
but sometimes overcast.
Time was never on our side.
But we went ahead to enjoy a rough ride.
The seasons of hearts change without warn.
But i forget my umbrella to weather the storm.
So i drenched in the dark time, for only hope could break.
I never once did feel fine, i couldn't bear this stake.
Love was all my heart was sure,
as nothing could ever be as pure.
With hope i open my arms to life, ready to catch what the weather will bring,
Though i felt i'd found my wife, I poured all i had in that one small ring.
To hear your voice would spoil my heart.
Your words of wisdom were always smart.
What the future had in store, can only be discovered in good time.
My insides always wanted more, as no man could ingore the sign.
Through so much, through time so small.
It could have all been fixed with one phone call.
But life goes its own way, never gives a moment to think.
You will fight another day, nothing can break that neverending link.
I miss you my prettifull baby, your smile would keep me warm at night.
I will never forget the lady, who will always be my shining light.
Nick Welch
18/01/04
X
PS - Yeah, its you Nai.
Each night is a new battle that is being waged inside me.
My heart is cold, my body freezing, my mind lost.
There's not ever been a way to express my feelings with words. But only with actions.
There is so much of me that is SHOUTING to me "NO"
I cant let what will happen happen, i dont want to lose THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN MY LIFE.
But theres nothing i can do but sit back, and watch them fall.
Be there for if and when it does.
Time is taking its toll on me, the deep wounds grow into scarrs that give you strength, but that will never go away.
Just a few seconds of misery is enough to darken a whole day of light.
But each day that i spent alongside her, was a day of light.
There really are no words to explain how i feel.
I feel torn between two worlds, one was the world i thought i had left when i met her, and the other is the world that i was in when i met her.
Its obvious to me what i want.
Its everything i've ever dreamt of...
I'm fed up of fighting, im tired of losing when everything in you trys for something to the point of having nothing left for yourself.
Theres just so much to say, but not enough words.
All i can say is that i've been honourable, and honest.
- : here is a poem that might say the rest : -
The Prettifull Light
Born on the shadow of doubt,
that was created by the darkness of the past.
our intentions mutual,
but sometimes overcast.
Time was never on our side.
But we went ahead to enjoy a rough ride.
The seasons of hearts change without warn.
But i forget my umbrella to weather the storm.
So i drenched in the dark time, for only hope could break.
I never once did feel fine, i couldn't bear this stake.
Love was all my heart was sure,
as nothing could ever be as pure.
With hope i open my arms to life, ready to catch what the weather will bring,
Though i felt i'd found my wife, I poured all i had in that one small ring.
To hear your voice would spoil my heart.
Your words of wisdom were always smart.
What the future had in store, can only be discovered in good time.
My insides always wanted more, as no man could ingore the sign.
Through so much, through time so small.
It could have all been fixed with one phone call.
But life goes its own way, never gives a moment to think.
You will fight another day, nothing can break that neverending link.
I miss you my prettifull baby, your smile would keep me warm at night.
I will never forget the lady, who will always be my shining light.
Nick Welch
18/01/04
X
PS - Yeah, its you Nai.