Bewildered...
I feel really very lost tonight, can't seem to put myself in any particular mood... I'm lonley, i know that... I'm tired... I find that everything is having an effect on me...
I just want things to be a little more stable, and predictable... Because they seem all over the place... I cant put my finger on it tonight... No matter what music i listen too, i start to cry, because of memories the music brings back...
I remember that i have had some dreams in the past... Really the nicest dreams, the real meaning of dreams, and i dreamt... I was so happy, they were so amazing, and i love them...
But, they are crap... Because you wake up afterwards, and you just feel like you want to die...
Dreams are the fiction that give you a taste of what life could be like...
Maybe its to show you what you've got to work for?
I really dont know... all i know is that my dreams couldn't be more distant right now... Because of that i feel completly unrest, and unforfilled, and empty...
I want to dream, but i dont want to wake up...
I think that sums up my state of mind...
Night all x
I just want things to be a little more stable, and predictable... Because they seem all over the place... I cant put my finger on it tonight... No matter what music i listen too, i start to cry, because of memories the music brings back...
I remember that i have had some dreams in the past... Really the nicest dreams, the real meaning of dreams, and i dreamt... I was so happy, they were so amazing, and i love them...
But, they are crap... Because you wake up afterwards, and you just feel like you want to die...
Dreams are the fiction that give you a taste of what life could be like...
Maybe its to show you what you've got to work for?
I really dont know... all i know is that my dreams couldn't be more distant right now... Because of that i feel completly unrest, and unforfilled, and empty...
I want to dream, but i dont want to wake up...
I think that sums up my state of mind...
Night all x