All American Boy - Chapter Thirty-One
Title: All American Boy. (When I made up this title, it was a joke because Nikki kept hassling me for one, so I told her this, and well it stuck)
Pairing: Arok
Rating: NC-17 (overall)
Disclaimer: I do not own/know AJ or Brian
Author’s note: I was sitting in class (I can‘t remember which one) and this story idea popped into my head, I started writing and this is what was produced. (it‘s what happens when you‘re bored out of your mind sitting in a class you don‘t want to be in) Oh and this story is written in different POVs . It alternates between Brian and AJ. They’re separated by the line of dots.
Chapter Summary: Total schmoop. AJ freaks a little and then Brian reassures him in a way AJ fully understands. ;)
(Chapter Thirty-One)
He's on air.
That's the only way AJ can describe how he's feeling right now as he lies in bed with a stupidly huge grin on his face as visions of last night flood his brain. He can still feel Brian's lips on his, their bodies pressed tight, Brian's hands in his hair as AJ clutches onto Brian's waist pulling him impossibly closer.
The kiss seemed to last for hours but was probably only minutes as they stood there exploring each others mouth. Soon, the need for air became too much and AJ reluctantly pulled away as Brian chased after his lips.
Panting, AJ rested his forehead against Brian's, staring into his eyes as he tried to regain his breath. "I've been wanting to do that for awhile." Brian whispers and AJ smiles.
"Me too." AJ whispers back.
"So we could've been doing that this entire time." Brian whines slightly, a small playful pout on his lips.
"No, because then we wouldn't have gotten anything done and I needed you focused." AJ replies, a playful smile spreading across his face.
"Using me for my brain, should've known." Brian sighs shaking his head, eliciting quiet laughter from AJ.
And AJ loves this. Loves that they can go from kissing to joking around. He likes that there isn't any awkward moments and that Brian is that sure and that comfortable with it all that he doesn't even need to bring it up again. "Shut up." AJ whispers after a moment, bringing his hand to Brian's cheek and pulling him in for another kiss. He feels Brian smile into the kiss and can't help but do the same.
AJ sighs both at the memory and himself. He is such a girl. He can't stop replaying it over and over again in his head and every time he does he gets that stupid grin on his face. AJ rolls over and debates whether he should get up or not. He doesn't really want to, not only because he's warm and comfortable in his bed but because he thinks that if he gets up it'll shatter the bubble of happiness and hope he's created and leave him with those nagging questions full of worry and every possible worse case scenario.
AJ sighs again, this time in frustration. After their impromptu make out session on the front porch, Brian had said that he should probably head home. And AJ had agreed, it was probably better if he did, that way they could completely avoid any awkward moments that were bound to happen if they were to go inside.
But then Brian's departure also brought on another problem. AJ had never got the chance to ask what they were at this point. Were they dating? Were they boyfriends? Were they just a couple guys who are helping each other out? What?
Having not had his questions answered last night, AJ's mind is free to wander through the possibilities and his brain just seems to paint one horrible scene after another. What if Brian thought about it and changed his mind? What if he realized that the fantasy didn't live up to the real thing? What if AJ wasn't what he wanted? What if he wasn't enough? What if-? And AJ has to shut his brain the fuck up because if he doesn't he's going to freak himself out and give him one hell of a headache to go with it. No, it's just better if he doesn't think about it and let's things happen however they may.
Yeah, right. Like his brain ever listens to him.
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Nervous.
Brian's bouncing with nerves. It's as simple as that.
He can't stop thinking about AJ and that kiss. Their kiss. The memory makes Brian smile softly. It was perfect. Everything he thought it would be and so much more. All he can think about is kissing AJ again, and again. But that's not why he's nervous.
No, the reason he's nervous is because he has no idea what the hell AJ is thinking right now and last night, in his kiss-drunk haze, Brian had forgotten to ask AJ what this meant now.
He knew what he wanted it to mean. He wanted AJ. He wanted to go on dates and spend lazy afternoons watching TV and making out. He wants AJ to be his boyfriend, plain and simple.
Apparently not so much, because even though he spent most of the morning assuring himself that AJ returns his feelings and wants this as much as he did, his pep-talk and self assurances didn't set in because the worry still snuck in and is now clutching at his heart. So, as a result, Brian grabbed his keys, put his shoes on and got into his car.
The drive was short and Brian is now currently sitting parked outside AJ's house, trying to psych himself up to go in.
Why was this so hard? They'd already kissed dammit. Maybe it was the fact that last night they were able to avoid all awkward situations but now, they've decided to make an appearance. Sighing, Brian gets out of his car, shuts the door, and makes his way up the front steps. Taking a deep breath, Brian raises his hand and rings the bell.
As soon as the door swings open, all of Brian's worries and questions fall away as he sees AJ standing there. His face breaks into a grin and AJ gives him a big, if not shy grin in return. "Hey." Brian finally speaks.
"Hey." AJ replies. And they stand there for a few moments longer, just staring at each other before AJ comes back to himself and that blush that Brian loves, spreads across AJ's cheeks as he takes a step back. "Come in."
Brian smiles and walks into the house. The awkward tension is still there and Brian's nerves are flaring up a little. But he notices the way AJ keeps fidgeting with the hem of his shirt and fingering the bracelet on his left wrist, a nervous tick that Brian had noticed only a few days after meeting him. Brian smiles slightly to himself, if AJ was as nervous as he was, maybe that was a good sign. Then again, it could be a really bad sign as well. Maybe it was time to just figure out what they were before anything got anymore awkward.
"You want a drink?" AJ asks, pulling Brian from his thoughts as they enter the kitchen.
"Some water?" Brian asks as he leans up against the counter.
"Kay." AJ nods, moving to the fridge and grabbing a bottle of water.
"Thanks." Brian smiles, taking the bottle of water and twisting off the cap to take a drink.
"So-" AJ starts to ask something but changes his mind and asks. "Um, upstairs?"
"Sure." Brian nods and follows as AJ heads upstairs to his room.
As the door shuts behind them and he's standing in the middle of the room, Brian is about to just ask the question that’s been burning in his head and get it over with.
AJ beats him to the punch because as soon as the door clicks shut, AJ is speaking and pacing in front of him, his fingers rubbing at his bracelet and all Brian can do is watch for the time being. "Okay, look. I don't know what you want from me. I know what I want and I don't know if it's the same thing you do and I don't think I can settle for much else. And if that makes me selfish then fine but I don't think I can go back to just being friends. I like you Brian. A lot. And I can't stop thinking about last night and our kiss. It was amazing, don't get me wrong and I really wanna do it again. But I want you. I want a relationship and Jesus Christ. I've been freaking out since this morning cause we never really got a chance to find out where we stood exactly and the waiting has been driving me crazy. And I've just spilled my guts to you and you're just looking at me and I think I may possibly faint, oh god." AJ rambles, clutching the desk for support as he passes by it for the twentieth time.
Brian is over by his side in a flash, rubbing at AJ’s back as he tries to sooth him. "Hey, it's okay. Just breath AJ. It's okay." Brian repeats, concern filling his voice as he tries to calm AJ.
"Sorry." AJ says sheepishly, after calming down. "I guess I got a little excited for a second." AJ states, giving a small self conscious laugh.
"Just a little?" Brian says with a small smile and sighs slightly. He knows AJ doesn't want to hear any jokes. "AJ," Brian starts but AJ interrupts him.
"It's okay." AJ says automatically. Moving away from Brian and standing in the middle of the room. "Don't worry about it. The whole thing was probably just a heat of the moment kind of thing. You don't have to explain anything." AJ says, painting a fake smile on his face. And Brian doesn't like it there. The only smiles that should ever be on that face
are real ones.
"AJ." Brian says firmly, grabbing onto his shoulders so that AJ will look at him. "Stop." And that confused expression on AJ's face would be adorable if this weren't such a serious moment. Brian thinks about explaining what he's feeling, sitting AJ down and talking to him, but he knows AJ, and he knows that AJ will just twist his words around to make things sound like he doesn't want him. So Brian opts for actions instead. It was easier that way, and Brian really can't resist. Brian stares at AJ for a moment, their eyes connecting before pulling AJ's mouth to his.
It's tentative at first, with AJ's lack of movement. But then AJ is responding and his arms slide around Brian's waist, and Brian's in heaven. AJ's lips are soft and warm. Brian keeps it gentle, pouring all that he's feeling into that kiss. Trying to make AJ understand that yes. Yes, he wants everything AJ does and so much more.
Brian pulls back after a few moments. His hands are still cupped around AJ's jaw as he stares into his eyes. "Yes." Brian whispers. "Yes AJ. I want you. I want this. I want us." Brian states and watches as his words finally break through to AJ. Watches as the grin spreads across AJ's face.
"Good." Is all AJ says before he pulls Brian back down to his mouth. They kiss enthusiastically, both boys pouring their hearts into that kiss. Their bodies pressed tightly together, not wanting to move away from each other.
"AJ honey, is that Brian's car out-" And the door swings open. The boys slowly pull apart, already knowing who will be standing in the doorway when they look. "Oh." Denise says looking at the scene before her.
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