YULETIDE!
DEAREST YULEGOAT!
warning: I wrote you a novel.
firstly, I'm sorry about the delay. this took me ages to write.
secondly, I ere on the side of giving way too much information. full disclosure! feel free to ignore if you want, but it's my personal preference to get as much information as possible.
my yuletide letters tend to be epic, especially last year's. this is my third yuletide, and all of my past letters should be here under the "yuletide letter" tag. they'll have even more about which other fandoms I like and why, in case that's helpful. also, they'll have probably more overlapping details about what kind of stuff I like.
important: I have a serious trigger regarding consent issues. my story should not have any kind of consent issues in it, even if they're in a gray area. (with a possible exception for LFN that I'll explain in that request section.) also, anything regarding choking is a huge trigger. please please please don't trigger me.
-notes about me and my story preferences!
--things I like:
female characters with agency. I tend to super like strong female characters, but this is not exclusive. I do not need my ladies to have guns and be super assertive, they can also be quiet and shy. the most important thing for me is that when a lady does something, she does it because it is what she wants, not because it's what the plot requires. I basically watch tv for women, and I'm serious about this. I can't watch shows that include no women at all, or even team shows were the ladies are around as stock characters.
(I'm not especially ship-focused, but I have ships. everybody does. there are only three couples that I feel protective about and would be upset if they were split up or with someone else, and I didn't request any of them for yuletide, so that isn't relevant. unless I specifically say, 'do not ship this,' I'm okay if you do and want to add that in there.)
if there is going to be romance, I'm generally pretty open to it. I don't dislike it unless it is the focus of the story before the characters. but here's the deal, if characters are kissing, I want them to be kissing because they both want it. I find mutual attraction super hot. I like it when people really thoroughly enjoy the kissing that they're doing.
genfic! I am a really big fan of character studies. I like my fics to be about characterization more than about plot or kissing. I especially like fics that are about pointing out new angles and perspectives on the original canon.
in terms of tone, I tend to enjoy the darker end of the spectrum. super peppy treacley fics really annoy me more than emo angstfests (although I don't want either.) humor is really tricky to do, although I'm totally good with light and fluffy humor fics where damon gets a puppy or something. I just need it to be character-based. and all of the fandoms I chose this year are dark in tone, so I can't really see a fic where everything is shiny and happy and wonderful. there needs to be realism in there.
competence! I really like it when characters are good at what they do. even if, like elena of tvd, it is being the most stable, awesome friend. doesn't have to be superpowers. I just like people being awesome at their jobs, and I especially like when other characters notice that and acknowledge it somehow, even if it's silent acknowledgment.
in regards to ratings: I'm cool with most ratings, that's why I didn't pick one. explicit sex is fine. explicit violence is fine. g-rated fic is fine. what I really want is for the rating to match what the story requires. just go with what the story is, I don't care what that ends up being.
in regards to shipping preferences: I'll read f/m, f/f, m/m and threesomes, no problem. I have no preferences there. (well, I tend to not read a lot of slash, but that's just because female characters are so important to me. if there's a way to have a slash pairing that involves ladies and ladies being awesome, I am all for it!) and the ultimate ship of my heart is justin/iris from carnivale, and they're canon consensual brother/sister incest. so I am not opposed to incest in principle, but I only actually enjoy mutually-desired consensual incest, if that makes sense.
conflict! even if the conflict is "should I go to the grocery store or not?", I want there to be conflict in the fic. something has to happen. no matter if it's saving the world with a toothpick. I just want there to be some kind of conflict, something to accomplish.
other random things that I like: the five things structure. robots, especially robots trying to learn how to be human. dance parties. hugs. the concept of devotion and what that does to a person. secrets, especially secret motivation. plotlines that run diagonally to the plot of the original text.
--things I dislike:
procedurals. I can't deal with the formulaic unchangingness of them.
grammar issues. it's nitpicky, but I can't help it. (especially putting apostrophes where there should be plurals. drives me fucking batty.)
writing in the second person. also, I tend to dislike first person. and I don't like present tense. if you don't feel comfortable writing in third person past tense and you're sure that you need present tense to express what's happening, I'm sure you can sell me on it. but please only do it if you honestly feel like it's necessary for the story.
hurt/comfort, bodyswap, genderswap, mpreg, gratuitous angst, and bodily fluids.
(when I say I don't like genderswap and bodyswap, I mean to say that I don't like the traditional fandom trope. if you want to write a story about a trans character or someone struggling with gender identity, I think that would be super awesome. but I wouldn't like a fic where two characters woke up in switched bodies or woke up a different gender.)
also, I really really dislike romantic relationships with a power imbalance. whether it's a big age difference or because one person is underage, or even if it's a teacher/student or mentor/mentee or boss/employee relationship. if a power imbalance would make it so that one person could be pressured into staying in an unhealthy relationship, I don't want it. (this gets a little wonky with LFN, but I'll explain in the LFN section.)
fics forced into boxes. I like organic stories. please don't try to force everything I like into the fic, even if it doesn't make sense for the story. if things run counter to what I requested, that's fine. I'd rather you write a story that you're proud of, the story that makes sense, than something that's been edited to fit a list of my tickyboxes.
again: non-consent. (this is a big deal for me. I'm saying it a lot, but I just want to make it very very clear. not that I'm worried, just that I want to be super clear. this is the most important thing to me personally.)
oh, and I also hate -isms. (sexism, racism, classism, bashing of any kind, especially lgbtq bashing.) if possible, I would not like there to be any isms in the plot, whether it's a pov character blindly hating on another group or a peripheral character being sexist in the background. I'd just rather not go there. I mean, if it's important to the story, that's okay. but please please please be sensitive about it.
ABOUT THE FICS.
I chose dark fandoms this year. lost girl is the fluffiest, but that show is definitely not actually fluffy. it's just kind of cheesy and canadian. dark stuff is happening in all four of the fandoms.
if in doubt, I really like things dark, twisty, complex and messy.
I'll put fandom notes under the original requests, which will be in italics.
1. Lost Girl
I would really like a fic where Kenzi is awesome and Kenzi-like. Going through the wacky Lost Girl verse being all awesome. I really don't care if Bo is having a romance in the background, but I do not want that to be a focus, I don't particularly ship Bo with anyone. I like the Bo and Kenzi to be friendshippy and not romantic but I guess that the only way I could see them getting it on would be through magical sex pollen or something. But basically, I just want Kenzi doing something awesome a lot.
I watch lost girl for kenzi. she is my favorite. I love all of her catchphrases. but most of all, I love how devoted she is to her friends. in 1.09, even when she had the crush on the doomed guy, she told him to go after his barmaid crush and genuinely rooted for him. kenzi always wants the absolute best for her friends and is so genuinely glad when the get it, even if it runs contrary to what she wants. I love that about her.
I don't have any specific ideas about what I want kenzi doing. it could be kenzi going grocery shopping and getting sidetracked by a vampire. it could be kenzi getting a ghost boyfriend. it could be bo kidnapped by a random fae and kenzi having to go all detective and save her ass. honestly, I'm okay with all levels of plot on this one. even if it's a slumber party with dyson.
the only important request I have is that somewhere in the fic, I want kenzi and bo to hug.
2. The Vampire Diaries (tv)
I love these women. So I would like to have a fic where they all team up and fight crime. (Even if Katherine is super reluctant and snarky about it.) Or they could have a road trip. I just want them to have teamwork and bonding and snarky banter. I am cool with Damon being around, but I do not at all ship Damon/Elena, so I wouldn't like anything shippy going on there. And really, I love every female character. Stick them all in there if you want!
here's the deal: I love literally every lady on this show. my favorite character is anna, but I couldn't figure out how she would fit in to a group adventure, so I didn't ask for her. I also love lexie. the boys are more complicated.
the boys are more tricky. I don't like jeremy. I don't like tyler. I don't like the werewolves. (well, don't like is kind of harsh. it's just that I care about them 5000% less than everybody else.) I'd prefer to just not read about them, or have them minimized. I don't ship bonnie/jeremy, it kind of bugs me. I'm pretty sure that tyler is the right guy for jeremy. I think alaric is super cool, I like how steady and competant he is. but I don't ship him with damon.
damon. okay, so here's the deal. I find him fucking hilarious. and he's a really interesting character. and he is probably the character I enjoy watching the most (after katherine and caroline) because dude makes the best faces. and is very witty. but I do not ship damon/elena. at all. the only way I could get behind damon and elena kissing is if they were having a threesome with stefan. (I'd totally ship that.) I am not a big fan of damon in a romantic relationship with anybody, I don't see how he could handle that. but it would be super awesome if he was made mayor.
stefan! I really really like him. he's the best vampire boyfriend ever. I think that stefan/elena is not creepy, and I love how he respects elena's feelings and agency and how much of a wonderful, supportive friend he is. dude is noble and honorable and kind of dorky, and I dig that. (also, I do not mind stefan/damon, there is more than enough subtext on the show.)
about my request: caroline is amazing. bonnie is amazing. elena is amazing. and I love katherine. I think that katherine would add a really awesome layer of conflict to that dynamic. I love all of these women for exactly what they are. (awesome.) and the trio's friendship, even though it's strained in s2, is just super amazing. I'd like to see more of that. I'd like them to have a plot of their own. fluffy, cracky, angsty, whatever. I'm cool with alternate universes and time travel and you can set it on the moon if you want. just, you know, group bonding.
3. Fringe
I love Nina. I would like a fic about Nina from her POV. I don't care if it's pre-series or post-series or AltNina in the AltVerse or anything during the series. I can see her shipped with anybody but Peter and Walter. I just really really really want something where Nina is awesome. (Preferably interacting with some of the other women on the cast.) Morally gray behavior would be a super bonus, too.
I watch fringe for nina. it's hard, 'cause nina is in 2/5ths of the episodes and is usually only around for one scene, but I just love her so much. and the fandom usually ignores her. it's hard. I want more fic about nina.
here's the deal: I would like to read fic about nina with any of the main fringe cast (alternates included) (except maybe charlie, [and lincoln] because I don't see how that would work.) I'm cool with shipping her with anybody not a bishop. nina/broyles is probably my favorite, but I also love her relationship with olivia.
I'm not picky about the plot. even if it's a day in the life of running massive dynamic, I'd love it. nina sharp has a fucking robot arm. and she basically runs microsoft by herself. and she keeps all of the secrets. she always has her own agenda. and she is fucking brilliant. that's what's important to me.
4. La Femme Nikita
Madeline is my favorite. I would like a fic where Madeline is super awesome. Either pre-series or post-series when she has faked her death and is running shit in secret somewhere, please. Well, I would also like fic from the show canon, but not as much as something pre or post-series. I can ship her with anybody, so long as she's not turned into "the girlfriend". And I'm being really vague, but I would even be cool with a fic where she kicked puppies and then insulted Betty White. (Although that wouldn't be my first choice.) In summary: MADELINE DOING STUFF.
I love madeline. she is one of my all-time favorite fictional characters. and then the nikita remake came out and there was julie cooper playing the madeline role and it broke my heart, because she was nowhere near as awesome.
the thing about madeline is that she is terrifying. she strikes terror into the hearts of everyone that crosses her. and she's calm and collected about it. but there is always payback. and there are consequences. and she only gives one warning.
when I was trying to recruit all of my friends to watch this show, I described it as "bill adama and his emotionless robot girlfriend run alias in the dollhouse." and I stand by that. the show is such an interesting mix of cheese and absolute moral bleakness, I love it.
I can see madeline shipped with most people. but not birkhoff or walter, I really do not care about those two. I especially like madeline/operations and madeline/nikita. when I watched the show, I tended to only laugh at michael. I don't find him sexy. I don't ship nikita/michael. (and I disliked the sex police plotline.) I also think that her relationships with the old regime at section is super interesting, especially her relationship with adrian. (and her relationship with her husband.)
I don't want the fic to be about madeline learning that feelings are good after all! (especially if it's 'a christmas carol'-style) I think madeline is perfect just the way she is and she doesn't need to change. she is cold and she can turn her emotions on and off like a switch and she doesn't really like other people. and she is the most fucking competent person ever.
about madeline/operations. forget everything I said about power imbalances. their power balance is totally fucked up. it is a relationship where he could order her killed at any moment. but at the same time, madeline is the one who really holds the power. she knows all of his secrets and he wouldn't actually kill her. she could get out at any time. the power imbalance does not bug me, and I found "three eyed turtle" amazing and fascinating.
and because this is spying and espionage of an especially dark sort, consent gets into a gray area. I am okay with a plotline where someone would have to have sex with another person they don't want to fuck because the job depends on it. I'm not okay with someone being raped on the job. basically: if it's uncomfortable but for the job, I'm okay with it. but outside of that, I'm not.
I firmly believe that madeline faked her death at the end of season 4. I am cool with a fic where madeline does anything in any time period. it would be nice to get a mixture, but that's not necessary. I just want fic where madeline is awesome a lot. anything else is up to you.
in conclusion: I know I wrote a novel. I'm sorry if it was information overload. I believe in trying to be as clear as possible. anon commenting is turned on if you have any questions.
and I know that it is going to be impossible to get literally everything that I like. and I am perfectly fine with that. except for the consent issues, I don't really have any firm desires. please just write the story that you are inspired to write, I'm just glad to be getting the fic.
thank you.
warning: I wrote you a novel.
firstly, I'm sorry about the delay. this took me ages to write.
secondly, I ere on the side of giving way too much information. full disclosure! feel free to ignore if you want, but it's my personal preference to get as much information as possible.
my yuletide letters tend to be epic, especially last year's. this is my third yuletide, and all of my past letters should be here under the "yuletide letter" tag. they'll have even more about which other fandoms I like and why, in case that's helpful. also, they'll have probably more overlapping details about what kind of stuff I like.
important: I have a serious trigger regarding consent issues. my story should not have any kind of consent issues in it, even if they're in a gray area. (with a possible exception for LFN that I'll explain in that request section.) also, anything regarding choking is a huge trigger. please please please don't trigger me.
-notes about me and my story preferences!
--things I like:
female characters with agency. I tend to super like strong female characters, but this is not exclusive. I do not need my ladies to have guns and be super assertive, they can also be quiet and shy. the most important thing for me is that when a lady does something, she does it because it is what she wants, not because it's what the plot requires. I basically watch tv for women, and I'm serious about this. I can't watch shows that include no women at all, or even team shows were the ladies are around as stock characters.
(I'm not especially ship-focused, but I have ships. everybody does. there are only three couples that I feel protective about and would be upset if they were split up or with someone else, and I didn't request any of them for yuletide, so that isn't relevant. unless I specifically say, 'do not ship this,' I'm okay if you do and want to add that in there.)
if there is going to be romance, I'm generally pretty open to it. I don't dislike it unless it is the focus of the story before the characters. but here's the deal, if characters are kissing, I want them to be kissing because they both want it. I find mutual attraction super hot. I like it when people really thoroughly enjoy the kissing that they're doing.
genfic! I am a really big fan of character studies. I like my fics to be about characterization more than about plot or kissing. I especially like fics that are about pointing out new angles and perspectives on the original canon.
in terms of tone, I tend to enjoy the darker end of the spectrum. super peppy treacley fics really annoy me more than emo angstfests (although I don't want either.) humor is really tricky to do, although I'm totally good with light and fluffy humor fics where damon gets a puppy or something. I just need it to be character-based. and all of the fandoms I chose this year are dark in tone, so I can't really see a fic where everything is shiny and happy and wonderful. there needs to be realism in there.
competence! I really like it when characters are good at what they do. even if, like elena of tvd, it is being the most stable, awesome friend. doesn't have to be superpowers. I just like people being awesome at their jobs, and I especially like when other characters notice that and acknowledge it somehow, even if it's silent acknowledgment.
in regards to ratings: I'm cool with most ratings, that's why I didn't pick one. explicit sex is fine. explicit violence is fine. g-rated fic is fine. what I really want is for the rating to match what the story requires. just go with what the story is, I don't care what that ends up being.
in regards to shipping preferences: I'll read f/m, f/f, m/m and threesomes, no problem. I have no preferences there. (well, I tend to not read a lot of slash, but that's just because female characters are so important to me. if there's a way to have a slash pairing that involves ladies and ladies being awesome, I am all for it!) and the ultimate ship of my heart is justin/iris from carnivale, and they're canon consensual brother/sister incest. so I am not opposed to incest in principle, but I only actually enjoy mutually-desired consensual incest, if that makes sense.
conflict! even if the conflict is "should I go to the grocery store or not?", I want there to be conflict in the fic. something has to happen. no matter if it's saving the world with a toothpick. I just want there to be some kind of conflict, something to accomplish.
other random things that I like: the five things structure. robots, especially robots trying to learn how to be human. dance parties. hugs. the concept of devotion and what that does to a person. secrets, especially secret motivation. plotlines that run diagonally to the plot of the original text.
--things I dislike:
procedurals. I can't deal with the formulaic unchangingness of them.
grammar issues. it's nitpicky, but I can't help it. (especially putting apostrophes where there should be plurals. drives me fucking batty.)
writing in the second person. also, I tend to dislike first person. and I don't like present tense. if you don't feel comfortable writing in third person past tense and you're sure that you need present tense to express what's happening, I'm sure you can sell me on it. but please only do it if you honestly feel like it's necessary for the story.
hurt/comfort, bodyswap, genderswap, mpreg, gratuitous angst, and bodily fluids.
(when I say I don't like genderswap and bodyswap, I mean to say that I don't like the traditional fandom trope. if you want to write a story about a trans character or someone struggling with gender identity, I think that would be super awesome. but I wouldn't like a fic where two characters woke up in switched bodies or woke up a different gender.)
also, I really really dislike romantic relationships with a power imbalance. whether it's a big age difference or because one person is underage, or even if it's a teacher/student or mentor/mentee or boss/employee relationship. if a power imbalance would make it so that one person could be pressured into staying in an unhealthy relationship, I don't want it. (this gets a little wonky with LFN, but I'll explain in the LFN section.)
fics forced into boxes. I like organic stories. please don't try to force everything I like into the fic, even if it doesn't make sense for the story. if things run counter to what I requested, that's fine. I'd rather you write a story that you're proud of, the story that makes sense, than something that's been edited to fit a list of my tickyboxes.
again: non-consent. (this is a big deal for me. I'm saying it a lot, but I just want to make it very very clear. not that I'm worried, just that I want to be super clear. this is the most important thing to me personally.)
oh, and I also hate -isms. (sexism, racism, classism, bashing of any kind, especially lgbtq bashing.) if possible, I would not like there to be any isms in the plot, whether it's a pov character blindly hating on another group or a peripheral character being sexist in the background. I'd just rather not go there. I mean, if it's important to the story, that's okay. but please please please be sensitive about it.
ABOUT THE FICS.
I chose dark fandoms this year. lost girl is the fluffiest, but that show is definitely not actually fluffy. it's just kind of cheesy and canadian. dark stuff is happening in all four of the fandoms.
if in doubt, I really like things dark, twisty, complex and messy.
I'll put fandom notes under the original requests, which will be in italics.
1. Lost Girl
I would really like a fic where Kenzi is awesome and Kenzi-like. Going through the wacky Lost Girl verse being all awesome. I really don't care if Bo is having a romance in the background, but I do not want that to be a focus, I don't particularly ship Bo with anyone. I like the Bo and Kenzi to be friendshippy and not romantic but I guess that the only way I could see them getting it on would be through magical sex pollen or something. But basically, I just want Kenzi doing something awesome a lot.
I watch lost girl for kenzi. she is my favorite. I love all of her catchphrases. but most of all, I love how devoted she is to her friends. in 1.09, even when she had the crush on the doomed guy, she told him to go after his barmaid crush and genuinely rooted for him. kenzi always wants the absolute best for her friends and is so genuinely glad when the get it, even if it runs contrary to what she wants. I love that about her.
I don't have any specific ideas about what I want kenzi doing. it could be kenzi going grocery shopping and getting sidetracked by a vampire. it could be kenzi getting a ghost boyfriend. it could be bo kidnapped by a random fae and kenzi having to go all detective and save her ass. honestly, I'm okay with all levels of plot on this one. even if it's a slumber party with dyson.
the only important request I have is that somewhere in the fic, I want kenzi and bo to hug.
2. The Vampire Diaries (tv)
I love these women. So I would like to have a fic where they all team up and fight crime. (Even if Katherine is super reluctant and snarky about it.) Or they could have a road trip. I just want them to have teamwork and bonding and snarky banter. I am cool with Damon being around, but I do not at all ship Damon/Elena, so I wouldn't like anything shippy going on there. And really, I love every female character. Stick them all in there if you want!
here's the deal: I love literally every lady on this show. my favorite character is anna, but I couldn't figure out how she would fit in to a group adventure, so I didn't ask for her. I also love lexie. the boys are more complicated.
the boys are more tricky. I don't like jeremy. I don't like tyler. I don't like the werewolves. (well, don't like is kind of harsh. it's just that I care about them 5000% less than everybody else.) I'd prefer to just not read about them, or have them minimized. I don't ship bonnie/jeremy, it kind of bugs me. I'm pretty sure that tyler is the right guy for jeremy. I think alaric is super cool, I like how steady and competant he is. but I don't ship him with damon.
damon. okay, so here's the deal. I find him fucking hilarious. and he's a really interesting character. and he is probably the character I enjoy watching the most (after katherine and caroline) because dude makes the best faces. and is very witty. but I do not ship damon/elena. at all. the only way I could get behind damon and elena kissing is if they were having a threesome with stefan. (I'd totally ship that.) I am not a big fan of damon in a romantic relationship with anybody, I don't see how he could handle that. but it would be super awesome if he was made mayor.
stefan! I really really like him. he's the best vampire boyfriend ever. I think that stefan/elena is not creepy, and I love how he respects elena's feelings and agency and how much of a wonderful, supportive friend he is. dude is noble and honorable and kind of dorky, and I dig that. (also, I do not mind stefan/damon, there is more than enough subtext on the show.)
about my request: caroline is amazing. bonnie is amazing. elena is amazing. and I love katherine. I think that katherine would add a really awesome layer of conflict to that dynamic. I love all of these women for exactly what they are. (awesome.) and the trio's friendship, even though it's strained in s2, is just super amazing. I'd like to see more of that. I'd like them to have a plot of their own. fluffy, cracky, angsty, whatever. I'm cool with alternate universes and time travel and you can set it on the moon if you want. just, you know, group bonding.
3. Fringe
I love Nina. I would like a fic about Nina from her POV. I don't care if it's pre-series or post-series or AltNina in the AltVerse or anything during the series. I can see her shipped with anybody but Peter and Walter. I just really really really want something where Nina is awesome. (Preferably interacting with some of the other women on the cast.) Morally gray behavior would be a super bonus, too.
I watch fringe for nina. it's hard, 'cause nina is in 2/5ths of the episodes and is usually only around for one scene, but I just love her so much. and the fandom usually ignores her. it's hard. I want more fic about nina.
here's the deal: I would like to read fic about nina with any of the main fringe cast (alternates included) (except maybe charlie, [and lincoln] because I don't see how that would work.) I'm cool with shipping her with anybody not a bishop. nina/broyles is probably my favorite, but I also love her relationship with olivia.
I'm not picky about the plot. even if it's a day in the life of running massive dynamic, I'd love it. nina sharp has a fucking robot arm. and she basically runs microsoft by herself. and she keeps all of the secrets. she always has her own agenda. and she is fucking brilliant. that's what's important to me.
4. La Femme Nikita
Madeline is my favorite. I would like a fic where Madeline is super awesome. Either pre-series or post-series when she has faked her death and is running shit in secret somewhere, please. Well, I would also like fic from the show canon, but not as much as something pre or post-series. I can ship her with anybody, so long as she's not turned into "the girlfriend". And I'm being really vague, but I would even be cool with a fic where she kicked puppies and then insulted Betty White. (Although that wouldn't be my first choice.) In summary: MADELINE DOING STUFF.
I love madeline. she is one of my all-time favorite fictional characters. and then the nikita remake came out and there was julie cooper playing the madeline role and it broke my heart, because she was nowhere near as awesome.
the thing about madeline is that she is terrifying. she strikes terror into the hearts of everyone that crosses her. and she's calm and collected about it. but there is always payback. and there are consequences. and she only gives one warning.
when I was trying to recruit all of my friends to watch this show, I described it as "bill adama and his emotionless robot girlfriend run alias in the dollhouse." and I stand by that. the show is such an interesting mix of cheese and absolute moral bleakness, I love it.
I can see madeline shipped with most people. but not birkhoff or walter, I really do not care about those two. I especially like madeline/operations and madeline/nikita. when I watched the show, I tended to only laugh at michael. I don't find him sexy. I don't ship nikita/michael. (and I disliked the sex police plotline.) I also think that her relationships with the old regime at section is super interesting, especially her relationship with adrian. (and her relationship with her husband.)
I don't want the fic to be about madeline learning that feelings are good after all! (especially if it's 'a christmas carol'-style) I think madeline is perfect just the way she is and she doesn't need to change. she is cold and she can turn her emotions on and off like a switch and she doesn't really like other people. and she is the most fucking competent person ever.
about madeline/operations. forget everything I said about power imbalances. their power balance is totally fucked up. it is a relationship where he could order her killed at any moment. but at the same time, madeline is the one who really holds the power. she knows all of his secrets and he wouldn't actually kill her. she could get out at any time. the power imbalance does not bug me, and I found "three eyed turtle" amazing and fascinating.
and because this is spying and espionage of an especially dark sort, consent gets into a gray area. I am okay with a plotline where someone would have to have sex with another person they don't want to fuck because the job depends on it. I'm not okay with someone being raped on the job. basically: if it's uncomfortable but for the job, I'm okay with it. but outside of that, I'm not.
I firmly believe that madeline faked her death at the end of season 4. I am cool with a fic where madeline does anything in any time period. it would be nice to get a mixture, but that's not necessary. I just want fic where madeline is awesome a lot. anything else is up to you.
in conclusion: I know I wrote a novel. I'm sorry if it was information overload. I believe in trying to be as clear as possible. anon commenting is turned on if you have any questions.
and I know that it is going to be impossible to get literally everything that I like. and I am perfectly fine with that. except for the consent issues, I don't really have any firm desires. please just write the story that you are inspired to write, I'm just glad to be getting the fic.
thank you.