paradise in waiting
ok so i figured out that using public transportation alone isn't so bad. i take the train a lot by myself, to shop or meet people, or take pictures for photography. and i go in the crowded train, standing or sitting and check people out. for a second you think, watch your bag they might try to take it...but then some reasoning goes through your head and you're like would somebody really try to do something so mean, and in front of all these people?
the people on the T travel everyday. they fall asleep in the chairs no matter how loud it is and how much the train bounces and suddenly stops, causing the people who are standing to bump into each other or grab a pole real quick. besides the sleepers, most read and they read in any condition, and i just watch them, wondering what they could be reading and how it is interesting enough to be concentrated on amongst all this chaos and never look up.
i went to copley square and fenway park today alone to get some last minute pictures for photography. in a way its kind of liberating haha to jsut like be able to stop at any little shop you want and to sit on a bench,or get off on any stop you please, just to see whats there.
know what i noticed about boston? old guys sit outside and read the newspaper a lot.
anyways, this weekend i stayed over northeastern u. and visited some friends i knew way back in elementary school in jersey. it was actually really fun, besides the fact that the two parties we went to were so pathetic. people are so desperate to drink that they stand in line for like 10 minutes and push each other just to get to the keg. the cops break it up anyway. me and my friend had really good conversation and we stayed up til it was light outside, jsut talking.
immediately after i went to newberry street, shopping and spent $160 on hardly anything. woops.
saturday night was fun. i decided to hang out with a different crowd and they were awesome. sophomores. we went to someones house and it was so mellow and people actually cared about talking to you and stuff. but sometimes...a weird thing happens and sometimes you wish that someone WOULDNT call you after haha
anyway, i'm going to fail college. i feel like i'm not doing good at all. i have no idea where i am, but it seems like i'm so behind and know what? i dont care. i'm tired of this monotony already. read, class, read, paper, class, read, class... i skipped a class on friday just because and i felt so horrible about it. i sit around worrying about what i have to do, and dont do it. i dont know. if anything, i'm a B student and thats all i can do. i feel weird like, where is this leading me anyway? i know i'll have some career but its just weird. i'm a stupid modern person who wants instant gratification..dammit!! why cant i be those intellectuals on the train??
the people on the T travel everyday. they fall asleep in the chairs no matter how loud it is and how much the train bounces and suddenly stops, causing the people who are standing to bump into each other or grab a pole real quick. besides the sleepers, most read and they read in any condition, and i just watch them, wondering what they could be reading and how it is interesting enough to be concentrated on amongst all this chaos and never look up.
i went to copley square and fenway park today alone to get some last minute pictures for photography. in a way its kind of liberating haha to jsut like be able to stop at any little shop you want and to sit on a bench,or get off on any stop you please, just to see whats there.
know what i noticed about boston? old guys sit outside and read the newspaper a lot.
anyways, this weekend i stayed over northeastern u. and visited some friends i knew way back in elementary school in jersey. it was actually really fun, besides the fact that the two parties we went to were so pathetic. people are so desperate to drink that they stand in line for like 10 minutes and push each other just to get to the keg. the cops break it up anyway. me and my friend had really good conversation and we stayed up til it was light outside, jsut talking.
immediately after i went to newberry street, shopping and spent $160 on hardly anything. woops.
saturday night was fun. i decided to hang out with a different crowd and they were awesome. sophomores. we went to someones house and it was so mellow and people actually cared about talking to you and stuff. but sometimes...a weird thing happens and sometimes you wish that someone WOULDNT call you after haha
anyway, i'm going to fail college. i feel like i'm not doing good at all. i have no idea where i am, but it seems like i'm so behind and know what? i dont care. i'm tired of this monotony already. read, class, read, paper, class, read, class... i skipped a class on friday just because and i felt so horrible about it. i sit around worrying about what i have to do, and dont do it. i dont know. if anything, i'm a B student and thats all i can do. i feel weird like, where is this leading me anyway? i know i'll have some career but its just weird. i'm a stupid modern person who wants instant gratification..dammit!! why cant i be those intellectuals on the train??