Apr 19, 2004 18:02
orlando was awesome last weekend. lookin at all those apts and stuff w/bekah...i duno it just hit me like "wow, im gonna have my own place" me and bekah both looked at each other and were like damn this shyts really happening. its crazy. but im excited. its gonna be a struggle. but i just really think i can do it. we narrowed it down to 3 apts we like and in the next month or so we'll decide which one were gonna live in. im trynna fill out financial aid forms and get my transcripts and application to valencia all done within the next week. im kinda gettin distracted b/c its like im gonna do all this work to get into college n stuff wen i may not even graduate till summer. i beg my teacher every day to "meet me 1/2 way" which really means..change my grade from last quarter! but of course she wont. she really thinks i can pass the exam so lets pray to god i do. she gives a review sheet and since ill be livin w/my bro soon and hes really good taxes and such..he cud help me cram for my exam. ill be so happy if i pass it. it'll be like the best thing ever but if i dont...it'll fricken devistate me, i know it will. but we're thinkin positive now...cuz everything is gonna work out for me. it just has to. every day that passes i get a lil more sad that im gonna be leaving this house...i dont even kno how to express my appreciation tho. like this family saved my life. how do u go about thanking someone for takin u in for 7 months and makin u feel like part of the family? i jus love the fact that i can sit there and watch oprah w/momma hack, i love how when i need help w/things like financial aid and a state i.d. that shes rite there 2 help me. i love how me and sam can sit in her room and talk bout how our weekends went. i love how jamie calls me mo-mo. lol and i love that me and kc have a lot of good memories 2gether that ill never 4get. lemme stop, i kno this is gettin retarded but it really is sad for me. im gonna miss this family but ill never forget them. =/ im glad that im looking forward to the future for once...instead of being afraid of it. life isn't "good" yet but...it'll get there, i have a feeling. =)