COUNSELING? ARE U SERIOUS???
so im on the fone w/my wonderful mother and she tells me "u need counseling" shut the fuk up. shes so gay man.
i felt so sick 2day at work and i asked if i cud go home early and the lady laughed in my face and said "no" wtf? everybody hates me man i swear.
wednesdays bekahs bday. i just got her presents today. hope she likes them. shes my best friend. and i give her madd props 4 puttin up w/my shyt cuz shes like the only person who will. im kinda scared bout movin in w/her cuz movin in w/ur best friend is a very bad idea...obviously..but i think we'll be ok.
so ya man, all my mom does is tell me how my dad shud do this n that but she never fukin takes any kind of blame. she thinks its normal that at 16 yrs old i was supporting myself. wtf? fuk off. i fricken hate my life. grrr. she acts like sendin me $100 every few months is ok. i told her i dont even kno y she acts like she cares. we both know its a fukin act. at this point, i dont even want her to care. its garbage. tell me how fukin stupid it is that she actually told me that when i talk to her and other ppl that i shud put a smile on my face and pretend like im happy. are u fukin serious? shes like u better be nice to mrs. hack! i was like dude shes my only friend besides bekah. lol i love that lady. we have some good chats and watch some good shyt on tv sometimes. i told my mom that i think im the black sheep. she treats me like shyt. and i hate when she asks me how i am and expects me to just say "great mom, how are you" when hello im not fukin fake like u bitch! sorry! so when i tell her how i REALLY am she just says "wow, maybe i shud just call u another night" this is me every day bitch! get the fuk over it! =D grin and bear it muther fuker cuz this is me! ur one and only baby girl. ya right fuk that shit! i tell her only some of the reasons why im upset and she takes NO BLAME. shes like, thats not my fault. i did so much for u. BLA BLA BLA CRY ME A FUKIN RIVER! its all bullshyt anyways! hahaha. crock of shit is what it really is! i realize that im not the best person in the world and that im annoying sometimes or all the time or watever man but im a fuckin good person somewhere deep down. i duno anybody who cares bout ppl as much as i do. i care how my enemies feel for christ sake. i mean, come on. as much as i know kc hates me, if she were to come in my room and want to cry on my shoulder...id let her. if the bitch i fought in 9th grade was crying, id ask her if she was ok. i hate myself. seriously. im mean but i shud be mean in a different way. i shud be the quiet person. the one who doesnt give a shyt bout nebody but themselves...like my dear brother john. wat a good kid! everyone loves him and he hates me.
OH! and so..i decided im gettin a tattoo for my birthday somewhere on me that says I HATE EVERYONE! i drew it on me at work today and it looked super! hell ya! WOOOOOOOOO!! IM SOOOO HAPPY!!!
i felt so sick 2day at work and i asked if i cud go home early and the lady laughed in my face and said "no" wtf? everybody hates me man i swear.
wednesdays bekahs bday. i just got her presents today. hope she likes them. shes my best friend. and i give her madd props 4 puttin up w/my shyt cuz shes like the only person who will. im kinda scared bout movin in w/her cuz movin in w/ur best friend is a very bad idea...obviously..but i think we'll be ok.
so ya man, all my mom does is tell me how my dad shud do this n that but she never fukin takes any kind of blame. she thinks its normal that at 16 yrs old i was supporting myself. wtf? fuk off. i fricken hate my life. grrr. she acts like sendin me $100 every few months is ok. i told her i dont even kno y she acts like she cares. we both know its a fukin act. at this point, i dont even want her to care. its garbage. tell me how fukin stupid it is that she actually told me that when i talk to her and other ppl that i shud put a smile on my face and pretend like im happy. are u fukin serious? shes like u better be nice to mrs. hack! i was like dude shes my only friend besides bekah. lol i love that lady. we have some good chats and watch some good shyt on tv sometimes. i told my mom that i think im the black sheep. she treats me like shyt. and i hate when she asks me how i am and expects me to just say "great mom, how are you" when hello im not fukin fake like u bitch! sorry! so when i tell her how i REALLY am she just says "wow, maybe i shud just call u another night" this is me every day bitch! get the fuk over it! =D grin and bear it muther fuker cuz this is me! ur one and only baby girl. ya right fuk that shit! i tell her only some of the reasons why im upset and she takes NO BLAME. shes like, thats not my fault. i did so much for u. BLA BLA BLA CRY ME A FUKIN RIVER! its all bullshyt anyways! hahaha. crock of shit is what it really is! i realize that im not the best person in the world and that im annoying sometimes or all the time or watever man but im a fuckin good person somewhere deep down. i duno anybody who cares bout ppl as much as i do. i care how my enemies feel for christ sake. i mean, come on. as much as i know kc hates me, if she were to come in my room and want to cry on my shoulder...id let her. if the bitch i fought in 9th grade was crying, id ask her if she was ok. i hate myself. seriously. im mean but i shud be mean in a different way. i shud be the quiet person. the one who doesnt give a shyt bout nebody but themselves...like my dear brother john. wat a good kid! everyone loves him and he hates me.
OH! and so..i decided im gettin a tattoo for my birthday somewhere on me that says I HATE EVERYONE! i drew it on me at work today and it looked super! hell ya! WOOOOOOOOO!! IM SOOOO HAPPY!!!