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I am starting to realize something. I am begining to understand why i have such a fear of commitment. I still dont know who i am. I've been on this world for 19 years and 54 weeks, and i still have no fucking clue who i am. Sometimes it's aggrivating, but mostly it's fun. But what i dont understand is how; if I dont even know who i am, how can i let someone else love me? Who is me? I have changed so much in the past 2 years it's almost crazy. The people i used to obsess about, either dont talk to me anymore, or are still my friends that i would never even consider a relationship with anymore. I really am learning who i am (it just sometimes takes me a little longer to catch on to things), which is why i think i'm settling down a lot this year. I have a looooong way to go though. I'm ready to get over this fear, i just have to find Mr Right Now, and turn him into Mr Right.