chobbit has just left...
... after two weeks of him being here... it was really mediocre & sad to be honest. i'm a little uncomfortable with life at the moment. it was nice because dad was away.. we just didn't really do much.. & we haven't been ourselves since uni started up again.. but these past two weeks have hit me hard on how it has affected him. hopefully it is only temporaily (sp?).. i just wish it was back to the way it was.. i miss him that way but i know i have been affected too by university... it is horrible knowing that you've upset people or they have upset you. i feel insecure yet i don't.. i just wish things were more now.. chobbit living here.. him back to his normal self.. & me back to my normal self too.. i know the pill has something to do with it too but i'm not getting off it because i don't want babies & it makes my periods so much eaiser to deal with.
anyway enough of being emo it wasn't that bad... there was sunshine & some fun times. i'm a bit pissed off at amy.. it was chobbit's birthday & we didn't hear anything from her. i haven't since i was at her house for that bbq.. it sucks knowing that your drifting apart from your friends. i feel i only care about me & chobbit really at the moment. nobody cares about us except our families & thats all that matters. i know things are going to change a lot this year & friendships will fade away.. it just annoys me how slow its becoming this year. i'm so anxious right now.. i should get my results this weekend or monday & i'm bricking it! i know i'll pass i just want to more than pass.. i mean i've worked my goddam arse off & i don't want it to be all a waste.
on the job front i'm enjoying being a phone lady besides from the odd nobhead & paki. i'm only doing saturday days. now & again i get an extra shift if they're offering. its better pay than cineworld & i don't get treated like crap (yet). we don't get breaks but we pretty much do in some ways.. we eat whilst we're on the phone lol but if we need to go to the loo or get a drink we're allowed to & we're allowed to mess on the internet!! if it doesn't affect answering the calls. the people are really nice too.. well the ones i work with.. i've heard about some operators who can be horrible to newbies.. fingers crossed i won't meet them.
i need to raise money for me & chobbit, we've spent shit loads this week on blackpool & me on my car (i had to fork £150 on tyres because my car was spazzing out on the motorway!), appartently i must of went over a hole harshly & my front tyre buckled! eep! also the people who sold me the car gave me shit tyres! meh we still got a good deal!
chobbit has been driving my car too which is interesting he pisses me off when he brakes at the last second or daydreams! i know how my dad feels when i'm driving him! lol i kept waving my hands & screaming slow down, he was getting annoyed because it was like i didn't trust him but its okay now! haha. his mum has been txting & ringing none stop asking what were doing & moaning about her dramas.. shes had a lot on though his nan has broke her arm & shes too old to operate so his mam is looking after her constantly. still at least i won't see her for awhile (his mam) she really gets on my tits! for example chobbit has put his savings into my account coz i have better interest.. but when his mam had to give him his money she said i hope this is joint account this is going to... what the fuck?? making me sound like a man eater! i mean i've got my own money i've got more than what he gave me so why would i want to steal his money.
i can't wait until he moves here i'm going to be saying that every entry i do now lol
oh & blackpool! it was fine but not as good as last time.. i felt really ill & the rides have gone worse (!!!) i banged my head on the big dipper & nearly threw up on the iron brew! good times on vahalla though i'll always love that ride.. anyway we're going to alton towers on the 11th july! (hopefully) amy plans to come with us too.. my graduation is the day before! eeep!
see you on the flip side! xx
btw we cut down the bushes in my garden.. i wanted to just say to remind myself lol chobbit killed our tree in the process its pretty much a twig lol
anyway enough of being emo it wasn't that bad... there was sunshine & some fun times. i'm a bit pissed off at amy.. it was chobbit's birthday & we didn't hear anything from her. i haven't since i was at her house for that bbq.. it sucks knowing that your drifting apart from your friends. i feel i only care about me & chobbit really at the moment. nobody cares about us except our families & thats all that matters. i know things are going to change a lot this year & friendships will fade away.. it just annoys me how slow its becoming this year. i'm so anxious right now.. i should get my results this weekend or monday & i'm bricking it! i know i'll pass i just want to more than pass.. i mean i've worked my goddam arse off & i don't want it to be all a waste.
on the job front i'm enjoying being a phone lady besides from the odd nobhead & paki. i'm only doing saturday days. now & again i get an extra shift if they're offering. its better pay than cineworld & i don't get treated like crap (yet). we don't get breaks but we pretty much do in some ways.. we eat whilst we're on the phone lol but if we need to go to the loo or get a drink we're allowed to & we're allowed to mess on the internet!! if it doesn't affect answering the calls. the people are really nice too.. well the ones i work with.. i've heard about some operators who can be horrible to newbies.. fingers crossed i won't meet them.
i need to raise money for me & chobbit, we've spent shit loads this week on blackpool & me on my car (i had to fork £150 on tyres because my car was spazzing out on the motorway!), appartently i must of went over a hole harshly & my front tyre buckled! eep! also the people who sold me the car gave me shit tyres! meh we still got a good deal!
chobbit has been driving my car too which is interesting he pisses me off when he brakes at the last second or daydreams! i know how my dad feels when i'm driving him! lol i kept waving my hands & screaming slow down, he was getting annoyed because it was like i didn't trust him but its okay now! haha. his mum has been txting & ringing none stop asking what were doing & moaning about her dramas.. shes had a lot on though his nan has broke her arm & shes too old to operate so his mam is looking after her constantly. still at least i won't see her for awhile (his mam) she really gets on my tits! for example chobbit has put his savings into my account coz i have better interest.. but when his mam had to give him his money she said i hope this is joint account this is going to... what the fuck?? making me sound like a man eater! i mean i've got my own money i've got more than what he gave me so why would i want to steal his money.
i can't wait until he moves here i'm going to be saying that every entry i do now lol
oh & blackpool! it was fine but not as good as last time.. i felt really ill & the rides have gone worse (!!!) i banged my head on the big dipper & nearly threw up on the iron brew! good times on vahalla though i'll always love that ride.. anyway we're going to alton towers on the 11th july! (hopefully) amy plans to come with us too.. my graduation is the day before! eeep!
see you on the flip side! xx
btw we cut down the bushes in my garden.. i wanted to just say to remind myself lol chobbit killed our tree in the process its pretty much a twig lol