super size me
this whole week has been a blur. it's hard to remember that i'm a student and that i have to study. i feel like i've just been going through the motions and just going to class.
but i haven't had much time to actually do much of anything really. i haven't even had enough time to watch satc without interruptions.
when you're going out with someone, you see them all the time. everywhere... even when you don't plan it.
but when you're suddenly not going out with someone, then how is it possible to never see that person? yet, even when you don't see that person, the ghost of that person always lingers. the places where you used to hang out... the sidewalks where you used to walk along together... there are never signs of that person, but the 'scent' of that person always lingers.
lol, also, there are the people who you talk to once in a while and know you just enough to know that you were dating that person, but you haven't talked to them in a while so they the first thing they ask about is you and your ex...
i've learned a lot in the past week. or... rather, i'm starting to realize the things that i am supposed to learn. and one of the most important lessons is about myself. no matter how many relationships come and go and how many friends i have, unless i try to have a relationship with myself... a healthy one... one in which, i am my own priority and i don't lose sight of what i want in life... then i'll never be able to have relationships with other people.
what if i'm not a relationship person?
but i haven't had much time to actually do much of anything really. i haven't even had enough time to watch satc without interruptions.
when you're going out with someone, you see them all the time. everywhere... even when you don't plan it.
but when you're suddenly not going out with someone, then how is it possible to never see that person? yet, even when you don't see that person, the ghost of that person always lingers. the places where you used to hang out... the sidewalks where you used to walk along together... there are never signs of that person, but the 'scent' of that person always lingers.
lol, also, there are the people who you talk to once in a while and know you just enough to know that you were dating that person, but you haven't talked to them in a while so they the first thing they ask about is you and your ex...
i've learned a lot in the past week. or... rather, i'm starting to realize the things that i am supposed to learn. and one of the most important lessons is about myself. no matter how many relationships come and go and how many friends i have, unless i try to have a relationship with myself... a healthy one... one in which, i am my own priority and i don't lose sight of what i want in life... then i'll never be able to have relationships with other people.
what if i'm not a relationship person?