Cost of Life
I dunno. I am feeling like absolute shit and there is realy no one to talk to because people do not like constant negativity...hell I can hardly live with myself and just want to sleep away my free time which is even more now that I don't have futureshop or school. All the people I know, save a few, are also feeling down so my question is What is the point? I have had several answers ranging from 'thats life' and 'life is hard' etc to 'it will get better' and 'good will eventually come'.....mk. SO I have been waiting for almost 18 years for good. My head is shit and I feel like dying most of the time. People think it is selfish BUT really, when you think of it, me not opting out earlier is unselfish. I am currently paying $4/day to stay alive which as my brother estimates will be $14,000 in 10 years, enough for a car or a house payment or a few trips! People are like 'its worth it' but they are not the ones paying for it. When there is no reason to live, i could give less of a fuck about it getting better. It is not. I am just tired and I want to go to sleep and I am sorry if people feel I am being selfish.