Last Call
I wanted to leave yesterday. I am okay with putting it all out there. I am okay with imagining, yet still yesterday I wanted to leave. I almost belieive in the symbolism of the world which is the micro representation of the world. I can be territorial. That is a word that suits me well. I am a fighter, of my self. Of my self preservation. I know that I am. I am in all that I am. I fucking shit on opposition. I despise dishonesty. In myself first and foremost. I despise holding anothers secret. I hate seeing the nicities shown on everyone else. I love me, but I cannot find the language for it. I believe that I am in a good spot in my life. I pity many people here. I see them as confused, like me in my situation now. Only I would affirm this statement by describing the multifacetness of my personality and perceptions. I may get locked into my perceptions now and again, thus making them judgements.
I will ride away on my bicycle one of these days. I disenjoy being hated on. I would like to say "Fuck you" as an end point. I value relatioships. I value the quality and depth of relationships and that is why....hmmm...that is why I am ambivialent about keeping two relationships that are detrimental to my well being. I suppose that there is depth. I feel as if the psychological terrain that is being explored in the relatioships is vast. I suffer also. this is the strongest and most sad aspects of it. I suffer so so so so so so so so so so so so much from these two. I need space. I need privacy. I need positive interactions. Leeches and zombies, stoner faced vampires. Their drug use makes me highly uncomfortable. I feel so disrespected. I need to feel free and open and this is what I want. I will tell the world myself so that They don't need to. Fuck. I know longer wish to have secrets. No secrets! I watched two movies last night
I will ride away on my bicycle one of these days. I disenjoy being hated on. I would like to say "Fuck you" as an end point. I value relatioships. I value the quality and depth of relationships and that is why....hmmm...that is why I am ambivialent about keeping two relationships that are detrimental to my well being. I suppose that there is depth. I feel as if the psychological terrain that is being explored in the relatioships is vast. I suffer also. this is the strongest and most sad aspects of it. I suffer so so so so so so so so so so so so much from these two. I need space. I need privacy. I need positive interactions. Leeches and zombies, stoner faced vampires. Their drug use makes me highly uncomfortable. I feel so disrespected. I need to feel free and open and this is what I want. I will tell the world myself so that They don't need to. Fuck. I know longer wish to have secrets. No secrets! I watched two movies last night