Help me
I just need to write into this before I do something I'll regret. I'm panicing again like I always do when something of this nature comes about. Luckily I've caught myself and am trying to control it so I don't assume things and "freak out". I think I'll just lay out the absolute facts as they are, not any assumptions but what has really happened.
Erin and me have been distant, we don't talk much anymore and when we do it's not for long or about anything important. I havn't been visiting her as much either. Lately she talks to Brad a lot and sees him very often, stays up all night talking to him. She hasn't been enthusiastic at all to see me lately, Tasche said she wanted me to go to the Rocky Horror thing tonight, but Tasche said that, I didn't actually hear that from Erin. The rocky horror thing didn't happen I guess as Erin hasn't called back. Erin talks about Brad a lot, and always wants to be around him, and has recently drawn a picture of two people wrapped in a blanket. One of them is definatly her, with her crazy hair now, and the other has brads hair and his earrings. They are sillouhettes so you can't quite make it out. Now heres where I would normally freak out, but I'm just not going to assume things for once and attempt to talk to her about it, ring...ring ring, callwave. Erin is not online, but I'm just going to say shes asleep and her mom is using the internet. I didn't get to talk to her about it... which is what she has told me to do in the past, but then again thats when we were together. I also don't want to think things about her and Brad, but it would really help if I could talk to her about it because I know I'll just over think it before I get to sleep. Brad has been there for her a lot lately, so maybe it's natural she would appreciate and love him very much for spending so much time with her, and it could be possible it isn't an emotional attachment. I'm really trying to think as rationally as possible here, I don't want to bury myself in a hole deeper then I already am in. I...I just can't stop...thinking...my chest aches and I wish I could just TALK to her! I need to know whats been going on lately! Theres been something mentioned and hinted at lately that we have some stuff to talk about and I really need to get these things sorted out or I'm going to have the hardest time controlling myself from doing something stupid.
Help...I need to know what has been happening, whether I should just give up already, because I'm swinging by a thread here don't I know it, I'm just stressed now XP
Erin and me have been distant, we don't talk much anymore and when we do it's not for long or about anything important. I havn't been visiting her as much either. Lately she talks to Brad a lot and sees him very often, stays up all night talking to him. She hasn't been enthusiastic at all to see me lately, Tasche said she wanted me to go to the Rocky Horror thing tonight, but Tasche said that, I didn't actually hear that from Erin. The rocky horror thing didn't happen I guess as Erin hasn't called back. Erin talks about Brad a lot, and always wants to be around him, and has recently drawn a picture of two people wrapped in a blanket. One of them is definatly her, with her crazy hair now, and the other has brads hair and his earrings. They are sillouhettes so you can't quite make it out. Now heres where I would normally freak out, but I'm just not going to assume things for once and attempt to talk to her about it, ring...ring ring, callwave. Erin is not online, but I'm just going to say shes asleep and her mom is using the internet. I didn't get to talk to her about it... which is what she has told me to do in the past, but then again thats when we were together. I also don't want to think things about her and Brad, but it would really help if I could talk to her about it because I know I'll just over think it before I get to sleep. Brad has been there for her a lot lately, so maybe it's natural she would appreciate and love him very much for spending so much time with her, and it could be possible it isn't an emotional attachment. I'm really trying to think as rationally as possible here, I don't want to bury myself in a hole deeper then I already am in. I...I just can't stop...thinking...my chest aches and I wish I could just TALK to her! I need to know whats been going on lately! Theres been something mentioned and hinted at lately that we have some stuff to talk about and I really need to get these things sorted out or I'm going to have the hardest time controlling myself from doing something stupid.
Help...I need to know what has been happening, whether I should just give up already, because I'm swinging by a thread here don't I know it, I'm just stressed now XP