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I still can't decide, but most of the time I get this overwhelming feeling that I am doing the wrong thing with my life. I thought college would be about starting a new life and moving away from what we were in a good way. I'm not feeling that, and I need to. I love my school though, it's just that I'm too close to home, as convienent as it it, and I feel like there's still some sort of high school vibe lingering around my life. There are also a few people I don't think I want in my life anymore really or that I would just not prefer to see for long periods of time except breaks.
Most days I feel like getting in the car and driving 500 miles to where ever.
Others it's about booking flights to Spain, Ireland, even Israel just to be completely astounded and not care about what I've had in the past.
Some days I stay up until 5 hanging out with my friends from my dorm, going to McDonalds or Starbucks, never finishing my papers, but having a great time.
On occasion I drive to College Station; my parents wouldn't understand if I came home on a Wednesday night "just because".
Today it's wanting to stay home and try to write papers to raise my GPA so I get into UT, but who knows if I even desire that anymore.
Tomorrow it will be waking up and trying to forget it all and get it over with, calling home and being on the internet, making it so it doesn't bother me and convincing myself that we all feel this way.
I continue to be optimistic, believing that it will all even out in the end, as long as I do what I want, knowing I am capable, and that no one else matters in these choices but my self.
I hope all is well with you.
Share if not, it helps more than you know.
Most days I feel like getting in the car and driving 500 miles to where ever.
Others it's about booking flights to Spain, Ireland, even Israel just to be completely astounded and not care about what I've had in the past.
Some days I stay up until 5 hanging out with my friends from my dorm, going to McDonalds or Starbucks, never finishing my papers, but having a great time.
On occasion I drive to College Station; my parents wouldn't understand if I came home on a Wednesday night "just because".
Today it's wanting to stay home and try to write papers to raise my GPA so I get into UT, but who knows if I even desire that anymore.
Tomorrow it will be waking up and trying to forget it all and get it over with, calling home and being on the internet, making it so it doesn't bother me and convincing myself that we all feel this way.
I continue to be optimistic, believing that it will all even out in the end, as long as I do what I want, knowing I am capable, and that no one else matters in these choices but my self.
I hope all is well with you.
Share if not, it helps more than you know.