um..hi...my name is blk ink and I have a problem...
I have been queen of alienating everyone I possibly know, but hell if i didn't do that I probably wouldn't be me right? so Yeah I think I pissed Ken off or atleast irked him with my flakiness by standing him up on saturday night, sorry buddy depression sat in made me moodier then shit and not a load of fun to be around..
been pondering the meaning of life and who the hell I am again.. and in the process pissed matt off.. but that's fine with me since yeah.. he can pass judgement on me but I'm not allowed to have my say??
I've also been suffering from that whole.. being in a room of people and feeling like you don't have any reason/right/or desire to be there. I don't fit in, and that's not self inflicted, my personal, religious and political beliefs are not conducive to that environment that I have to be in.
I'm going back to being vegetarian.. I feel so much better, but right now I'm still having dairy, not milk so much but cheese, cause yeah i am having a bitch of a time giving it up. I'm contemplating therapy again.. I am needing to sort myself out again.. typical huh? my brains going at a rate my emotions can't handle...and half the time i feel like i want to tell people to shut the fuck up and open their eyes to what the fuck is going on around them.. i don't know.. i'm just pissy, i want a cigarette and a strong martini....
been pondering the meaning of life and who the hell I am again.. and in the process pissed matt off.. but that's fine with me since yeah.. he can pass judgement on me but I'm not allowed to have my say??
I've also been suffering from that whole.. being in a room of people and feeling like you don't have any reason/right/or desire to be there. I don't fit in, and that's not self inflicted, my personal, religious and political beliefs are not conducive to that environment that I have to be in.
I'm going back to being vegetarian.. I feel so much better, but right now I'm still having dairy, not milk so much but cheese, cause yeah i am having a bitch of a time giving it up. I'm contemplating therapy again.. I am needing to sort myself out again.. typical huh? my brains going at a rate my emotions can't handle...and half the time i feel like i want to tell people to shut the fuck up and open their eyes to what the fuck is going on around them.. i don't know.. i'm just pissy, i want a cigarette and a strong martini....