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Being a jerkass like I am, I like to think that I look at things with a mild degree of an open mind.
I may not always see both the sides of things clearly, but to be honest, who does? I'm not going to pretend I'm perfect. In fact, I consider myself the complete idea of what perfect can be the compared to, simply so perfection is better appreciated.
I try to be a good friend, and I find myself at least mildly successful in that aspect. I would not say the same about some of my friends however.
I've been thinking recently, and I haven't been able to think of anybody who hasn't been very successful in being one of the following: neglectful, lustful, deceitful, arrogant, anticonformist, conformist, and to put it a short way, a bad friend to me in general.
Liars, fuckers, mind rapists, neglectful assholes.
I may be a jerk for saying these things, and yes I am also guilty of one or more of these things.
Doesn't mean you should follow my example.
I hope you find this post mean, because I, for the first time in my life, feel as if I don't have any friends. I feel as if I am just something on the side, and I'm not important enough for anything.
With my current self esteem and charm, this can be considered an addition to my house of hate, if you will. I have had thoughts of suicide, as I'm sure we all have. Trust me, things will never come to that with me at least, but for once, I really can't think of a reason not to.
Even when I was upset previously, I had a certain fallback or good thing to think of. Friendship was always there, and although I will most likely get a bunch of posts telling me how someone loves me and never wants me to feel that way etc, getting a reaction isn't what I'm looking for. Having this feeling period is bad enough.
Getting compensation isn't my goal guys, I just can't believe I actually had the situation for this to come up in the first place.
Woot.
I may not always see both the sides of things clearly, but to be honest, who does? I'm not going to pretend I'm perfect. In fact, I consider myself the complete idea of what perfect can be the compared to, simply so perfection is better appreciated.
I try to be a good friend, and I find myself at least mildly successful in that aspect. I would not say the same about some of my friends however.
I've been thinking recently, and I haven't been able to think of anybody who hasn't been very successful in being one of the following: neglectful, lustful, deceitful, arrogant, anticonformist, conformist, and to put it a short way, a bad friend to me in general.
Liars, fuckers, mind rapists, neglectful assholes.
I may be a jerk for saying these things, and yes I am also guilty of one or more of these things.
Doesn't mean you should follow my example.
I hope you find this post mean, because I, for the first time in my life, feel as if I don't have any friends. I feel as if I am just something on the side, and I'm not important enough for anything.
With my current self esteem and charm, this can be considered an addition to my house of hate, if you will. I have had thoughts of suicide, as I'm sure we all have. Trust me, things will never come to that with me at least, but for once, I really can't think of a reason not to.
Even when I was upset previously, I had a certain fallback or good thing to think of. Friendship was always there, and although I will most likely get a bunch of posts telling me how someone loves me and never wants me to feel that way etc, getting a reaction isn't what I'm looking for. Having this feeling period is bad enough.
Getting compensation isn't my goal guys, I just can't believe I actually had the situation for this to come up in the first place.
Woot.