The Spiral Continues
Well, It's been a couple of days, yet I feel no better. I may even feel worse. I've missed a payment on something and now the creditor is calling home to see what's up. The mother is very suspisious. I can't tell her what I bought, she'll kick my ass and tell me it was a stupid purchase. I understand I'm being choked by my debt. I can't get out. She's willing to bail me out, but I know I'll just run it up again. Why can't I learn smart finances. I need to make more money, but I can't physically work any more hour. It will kill me.
As far a classes go. I'm probably headed down the road to dropping out. I've waited so fricking long to get into the School of Music and now I can't pass even if I were to blow my teachers. I have to pass with a fricking 2.0 I'll be lucky to see a 1.5 I think. That means my whole schedule for next semster is null and void. What am I going to take? How am I supposed to suceed in those classes?
Marching Band is finally over. I enjoyed this year even though It sucked at times going through the grind. Sucked even more that the team commited the Greatest Tragedy of our modern age. The best band in the nation can't be showcased at a bowl game. Thanks John L. et al, good riddance. If I don't see a bowl during my carrer, (what's left of it) I'm going to snap. Spartan Brass will finally begin for me at the basketball games tomorrow, since my quartet and studio have robbed me of other playing opportunites, luckily those absences don't count against me.
Last week also had me audtioning for squad and section leader. I've been aching for band leadership next year. With my eyes set on squad leader, I audtioned for section leader for shits and giggles, now after audtioning for section leader, I really want that bad. It sucks because I stand a snowball's chance at getting it. Everyone has pretty much assumed who will get it and the votes will go to that person I'm sure. It really sucks, but I'm just gonna have to move on.
In summary. I'm overworked, overstressed, overambitious, and overbudget. I can't fucking take it anymore. I want to jump off my balcony, maybe break a few limbs. Whoever thought that dreams coming true actually became your worst nightmare?
As far a classes go. I'm probably headed down the road to dropping out. I've waited so fricking long to get into the School of Music and now I can't pass even if I were to blow my teachers. I have to pass with a fricking 2.0 I'll be lucky to see a 1.5 I think. That means my whole schedule for next semster is null and void. What am I going to take? How am I supposed to suceed in those classes?
Marching Band is finally over. I enjoyed this year even though It sucked at times going through the grind. Sucked even more that the team commited the Greatest Tragedy of our modern age. The best band in the nation can't be showcased at a bowl game. Thanks John L. et al, good riddance. If I don't see a bowl during my carrer, (what's left of it) I'm going to snap. Spartan Brass will finally begin for me at the basketball games tomorrow, since my quartet and studio have robbed me of other playing opportunites, luckily those absences don't count against me.
Last week also had me audtioning for squad and section leader. I've been aching for band leadership next year. With my eyes set on squad leader, I audtioned for section leader for shits and giggles, now after audtioning for section leader, I really want that bad. It sucks because I stand a snowball's chance at getting it. Everyone has pretty much assumed who will get it and the votes will go to that person I'm sure. It really sucks, but I'm just gonna have to move on.
In summary. I'm overworked, overstressed, overambitious, and overbudget. I can't fucking take it anymore. I want to jump off my balcony, maybe break a few limbs. Whoever thought that dreams coming true actually became your worst nightmare?