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this weekend was AMAZING!! rachel came home from nebraska on thursday adn tommy came home from texas on friday.. friday night i went out with rachel and abby and some people and saturday i got to spend with tommy...we umm consummated what we've been wanting for the last 2 weeks that he was away for work...he really is amazing! everything about him is...and it was 3 months since our first date...it doesn't feel like we've been doing whatever it is that we've been doing for 3 months...and i still don't exactly know what to call him. i have fallen head over heels for this guy, i would do absolutely anything for him. i don't even wanna look at anyone else much less try to talk to/be with anyone else. and yet with all of my feelings, i'm not sure what exactly he wants. we have one boundary-while we're doing whatever it is we're doing(dating/sleeping together) we won't do it with anyone else. so what does that make us? im single yet i can't go out with anyone else?? not that i want to, i just wanna know what my options are you know. oh i don't even know anymore. i just wish he would make up his mind.but then if making up his mind means not talking to me anymore...then i don't want him to do it. what is wrong with me??? am i stupid or something? i also got to see him last night...it was amazing again...of course it was...it always is... ugh i have got to put an end to this... but how can i do that?
maybe all i really am good for is a piece of ass?? maybe i'm never gunna find the ONE and im just gunna live my life being someone's piece of ass?? i dont' even fucking know anymore...
whatever!
maybe all i really am good for is a piece of ass?? maybe i'm never gunna find the ONE and im just gunna live my life being someone's piece of ass?? i dont' even fucking know anymore...
whatever!