Sunday, Bloody Sunday - Part Deux
What a dreary day. The weather conditions outside are enough to make me take a big shit. I do feel a bit accomplished, however. I got to know Sigmund Freud a little better and finished up some statistics and LAN homework. In a minute I'll start up FFT and see if I can beat this impossibly hard boss. I had to resort to a walkthrough I found on the net to find some strategy to beat him, and even these strategies are out there! Square apparently didn't know what they were doing when they put just the main character up against a guy that can kill you in 2 turns. The popular strategy is to run and continuously up your speed by using Yell so that you have many consecutive turns. Then beat the crap out of him. One disadvantage I have is that I have it saved at a point at which I can't go to a shop to buy more gear, or try to level up more, unless I repeat a couple of previous battles. They weren't hard, my party is worth its salt and then some. I am level 37, which I think is a few levels above him, but he is a holy knight and uses those strong techniques that one of my "npc" party members can use. This npc character came into my party at some point during the game, and she is a powerful ally, used in almost every battle. I'm going to try this sissified strategy here shortly. If all else fails, it's back to the previous battles. Ah well, at least I know I can win...I'll just have to try to remember every move I made last time, lol.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm on the "right" track for me. Is what I am studying now really what I want to do the rest of my life? It may not be the rest of my life, either. People have been known to make career changes as they try to find a job they're happy with. I'll finish college and find some place to work, and we'll see how I do from there. If I don't act soon on some of these things, I'll be in trouble. I sure hate being a procrastinator sometimes, but its most present when I'm not disciplining myself, which is just my laziness. ::sigh:: It sucks admitting to your faults, but I think it's a good way to confront them and deal with them until you're satisfied with the way you are.
The deep psyche is not one to be rushed into, I think. In my experience, the farther back one goes, the more pain you are likely to encounter, which was finally revealed to me through reading Freud's work. It's another one of those things that you already know then read about, then actually REALIZE it. I don't know why I became fascinated in this area. Wait, yes I do. But why do I continue to try to figure out everything on a different level of thinking than when I used to? I guess it's the search for truth. I'm just looking for clues that may very well never come to me, but I have faith that they will. My faith in a lot of things has dwindled over the years, and sometimes when I think I know what the problem is, I doubt myself and wonder why something that I did should be considered wrong. (thinks of a filter song) There's some places that I'd never like to go back to, and I guess it's the fear that keeps us within our boundaries. The fear. They say that to overcome it, you must face it. I think this holds true for self confidence; believing in oneself. Well, it's almost 7:00 pm and I'm hungry and wanting to play some fft.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm on the "right" track for me. Is what I am studying now really what I want to do the rest of my life? It may not be the rest of my life, either. People have been known to make career changes as they try to find a job they're happy with. I'll finish college and find some place to work, and we'll see how I do from there. If I don't act soon on some of these things, I'll be in trouble. I sure hate being a procrastinator sometimes, but its most present when I'm not disciplining myself, which is just my laziness. ::sigh:: It sucks admitting to your faults, but I think it's a good way to confront them and deal with them until you're satisfied with the way you are.
The deep psyche is not one to be rushed into, I think. In my experience, the farther back one goes, the more pain you are likely to encounter, which was finally revealed to me through reading Freud's work. It's another one of those things that you already know then read about, then actually REALIZE it. I don't know why I became fascinated in this area. Wait, yes I do. But why do I continue to try to figure out everything on a different level of thinking than when I used to? I guess it's the search for truth. I'm just looking for clues that may very well never come to me, but I have faith that they will. My faith in a lot of things has dwindled over the years, and sometimes when I think I know what the problem is, I doubt myself and wonder why something that I did should be considered wrong. (thinks of a filter song) There's some places that I'd never like to go back to, and I guess it's the fear that keeps us within our boundaries. The fear. They say that to overcome it, you must face it. I think this holds true for self confidence; believing in oneself. Well, it's almost 7:00 pm and I'm hungry and wanting to play some fft.