Saturday's Entry
I missed yesterday completely, and as it is 11:20 I doubt I'll get two entries in tonight. I find myself without any compelling ideas and little motivation, but this project is all about pushing through the lack of motivation and forcing something - anything - out of my head an onto the 'page.'
I have big plans for tomorrow. I have Drew at home again so we will try to keep busy and productive. I plan to get him out in the shop to help me, or at least observe me, with the jewelry box. I am excited about that because I have a good plan and there are no parts of it I can't accomplish due to lack of tools or materials. I can surely fuck it up eight ways to Sunday but I've got no more excuses. It helps that I want this done by May 4th, my 10th anniversary. Deadlines motivate me. I work best under some pressure and I have been without it for too long, both personally aznd professionally.
An old friend and her family visited this weekend. It was nice to see them and to have a house full of kids. I even got to crack open one of my few good beers and share it with someone who appreciates the stuff. I don't mind enjoying a fine thing alone, but it's usualy better shared.
I am still unemployed and it is bothering me. I have spent a little time brushing up on my DB2 and SQL and I will do more, but it isn't enough. I tried to get JAVA on my PC and I think I screwed the pooch. MY PC has been very persnicketty since I did that. I may have ot lure a tech savvy friend over to help get me up and running.
An acquaintance set me up with a company. I have the CIO's card and an invitation to visit him after aplying on-line. It is out of my comfort zone and expertise, but who knows? Maybe that's what I need. The expectation was that it would be night-shift manual labor and maybe thats as good a place to start as any, but I ave to say that I am just plain intimidated by the process. Of course what I need to do is get out there and try. The future that finds me will be less impressive than the future I find for myself. So I'll apply on-line tomorrow and go in on Tuesday.
I am tired.