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I suppose the only way this could feel less like Christmas would be if mom and Tommy weren't here.
Either way, it's almost the end of the year, and I've got my weird 'sappy pensive melancholy' jitters in my stomach that accompanies the end of a year. And I suppose it's because I've always had trouble with change. I've always been hesitant to make change, so it makes it difficult to look forward to the new year, when I have no idea where it will lead me.
So instead, I have little choice but to look back on the year. And although this year was not terribly kind to me, there have been years in the past that were very good to me. Yet I still can't help but feel a sense of dread when these years come to a close. I suppose in a way, it reminds me that the only thing constant in this world is change. We don't get 'do-overs' if we err in our walk through life. First tries only happen once. Everything will one day end, and there is nothing that any man or woman may do to stop it.
I think I'm approaching that point, that 'Garden State' moment when I realize that I want to make something that will last forever, or at least beyond the end of my own days.
I hope I never let that opportunity slip past me.
Merry Christmas to everyone. I hope it finds you well, and brings you joy and peace.
Either way, it's almost the end of the year, and I've got my weird 'sappy pensive melancholy' jitters in my stomach that accompanies the end of a year. And I suppose it's because I've always had trouble with change. I've always been hesitant to make change, so it makes it difficult to look forward to the new year, when I have no idea where it will lead me.
So instead, I have little choice but to look back on the year. And although this year was not terribly kind to me, there have been years in the past that were very good to me. Yet I still can't help but feel a sense of dread when these years come to a close. I suppose in a way, it reminds me that the only thing constant in this world is change. We don't get 'do-overs' if we err in our walk through life. First tries only happen once. Everything will one day end, and there is nothing that any man or woman may do to stop it.
I think I'm approaching that point, that 'Garden State' moment when I realize that I want to make something that will last forever, or at least beyond the end of my own days.
I hope I never let that opportunity slip past me.
Merry Christmas to everyone. I hope it finds you well, and brings you joy and peace.