Oct 14, 2004 17:58
It's definately been a weird start to my school year. I don't remember having half the problems and anxieties that I'm currently faced with. CSH is on the verge of not existing if we don't do something proactive about it, thanks to higher-ups in Res-Life who feel they know what's best for our floor. There's been plenty of drama this year on floor, and I've probably only seen the tip of the ice berg. Sometimes it's just uncomfortable to visit, because of all the shit that's been happening, combined with the tragedy that befell a fellow floor member and friend.
Second, my personal life has been nothing short of an emotional rollercoaster. At the start of this quarter I met a girl who's been the best thing to happen to me. We went out for a little bit, but broke up because her past had not quite come to pass. There are many things that are still haunting her, and I wish I could make all the problems go away. However, there's still this incredibly strong bond between us, though I've been told we can only just be friends, nothing more. It hurts so much that a strong love has to be cut off, and I still don't entirely know why this has to be. I'm in a state of sadness and confusion, and honestly have no idea where to go from here.