do you get it now??
i am starting to think that i have been floating through this entire summer season. i have been enjoying life to the utmost, meeting tons of new friends and really feeling at home for once in the past two years.
things have taken a change for the worst today. not like have too much to complain about, but things seem suddenly different.
i received a 30 day notice for the end of my lease today. this notice did not come as a surprise to me as i have been expecting it any day. but, i am feeling unexpectedly anxious and let down by the prospect of moving out of my apartment and away from nichole.
i have started to see someone who i actually am just purely enjoying spending time with. our relationship, unlike previous ones, is not physically based, nor is it long distance. its taken an entire year to start seeing other people since jared. yet to my disappointment, my "best friend" who normally applauds my actions seems ruthlessly let down with my new engagement. ironic that i beg to be someone's friend for an entire semester with no response only until i start seeing someone else. is that really what it takes to catch your attention? should have dated others long before now if thats true.
i need to remember that i am leaving for dc in two weeks, moving back to a most beautiful location, and seeing my family really soon. I forgot what it feels like to be down... i suppose thats a good thing, no?
things have taken a change for the worst today. not like have too much to complain about, but things seem suddenly different.
i received a 30 day notice for the end of my lease today. this notice did not come as a surprise to me as i have been expecting it any day. but, i am feeling unexpectedly anxious and let down by the prospect of moving out of my apartment and away from nichole.
i have started to see someone who i actually am just purely enjoying spending time with. our relationship, unlike previous ones, is not physically based, nor is it long distance. its taken an entire year to start seeing other people since jared. yet to my disappointment, my "best friend" who normally applauds my actions seems ruthlessly let down with my new engagement. ironic that i beg to be someone's friend for an entire semester with no response only until i start seeing someone else. is that really what it takes to catch your attention? should have dated others long before now if thats true.
i need to remember that i am leaving for dc in two weeks, moving back to a most beautiful location, and seeing my family really soon. I forgot what it feels like to be down... i suppose thats a good thing, no?