i should just die now.
so um, yeah. if someone wouldnt mind shooting me in the head so that i die and dont have to deal with the next seven or eight months, i would appreciate it a whole fucking lot.
i am moving to mexico for six or seven weeks to be a full-time crew member in this shitty movie that i have been working as an extra in. i have to. i have no choice. cause if i dont, i will be fired. and if i get fired, i can be sued. so yeah, i leave next wednesday, and who knows when i will be back. probably the end of august.
this couldnt have come at a worse time. my friend rudi is coming from s. africa and is staying with a friend of mine. i was really excited about seeing him. the employment situation at directional concepts is really unstable. i will probably loose my job there now. i will miss a few shows that i wanted to go to. and the production of my part in the freaks video is going to be delayed even further than it already has been.
but all the problems listed above seem like a birthday party in comparison to this next one: i will be away from selina. for six fucking weeks. i mean, there is the possiblity that i will be allowed to return to san diego on the weekends, so i could see her then, but its not gaurenteed. some weekends i will have to work. this sucks. its almost like i am being sent to prison. fuck. i feel so fucking bad. i feel bad for her that her boyfriend is this guy who always gone and never around. and i feel even shittier that that guy is me.
dave, go to hell...
i am moving to mexico for six or seven weeks to be a full-time crew member in this shitty movie that i have been working as an extra in. i have to. i have no choice. cause if i dont, i will be fired. and if i get fired, i can be sued. so yeah, i leave next wednesday, and who knows when i will be back. probably the end of august.
this couldnt have come at a worse time. my friend rudi is coming from s. africa and is staying with a friend of mine. i was really excited about seeing him. the employment situation at directional concepts is really unstable. i will probably loose my job there now. i will miss a few shows that i wanted to go to. and the production of my part in the freaks video is going to be delayed even further than it already has been.
but all the problems listed above seem like a birthday party in comparison to this next one: i will be away from selina. for six fucking weeks. i mean, there is the possiblity that i will be allowed to return to san diego on the weekends, so i could see her then, but its not gaurenteed. some weekends i will have to work. this sucks. its almost like i am being sent to prison. fuck. i feel so fucking bad. i feel bad for her that her boyfriend is this guy who always gone and never around. and i feel even shittier that that guy is me.
dave, go to hell...