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I'm dreading Christmas, and to a somewhat lesser degree, the accompanying birthdays. The shopping was pleasant, thanks to Ebay and a few selected online stores, but the giving, I can foresee, will probably be miserable. That's with the exception of Amy, of course, although I do feel like I actually got her too much.
All of my familial relationships feel strained right now. There's Dee's homelessness, of course. Then it's Megan's devotion to her worthless boyfriend, and the low point to which it has dragged her. When it comes to Dad and Tonice and their kids, they just aren't fun to be around anymore. Tonice is perpetually drained, and my dad is, as always completely withdrawn. Steven, Teddie, Taylor, and Stephanie are just teenagers now. Enough said.
That just brings me to Wendy, the crowning jewel of it all. When she moved into her new house, I thought it'd be a pretty good idea to gather there this year instead of crowding everyone into my tiny living room. That'd be great, but lately I just cannot stand her. Somehow, despite being dirt poor only a few years ago, she seems to have become quite the snob this year. I first noticed this when she called to ask for ideas on what to buy so-and-so for Christmas. Every suggestion I made could only be totally inappropriate, like this: it's not ok to buy someone a shirt. Don't you know that you have to buy them a whole outfit? Or, a scarf, hat, and gloves is something a person should get as a stocking stuffer, not a real gift. Well, excuse the heck out of me, but I thought you just went with anything you thought they'd like, whatever it may be. Hopefully, a dvd and $25 gift card are acceptable, or I'm out of luck. And then what about the gifts I got for her kids? It's not that I feel they aren't good enough. If I did I could just take them back and get something else. Her attitude just baffles me and I so resent it.
Besides that, it's just part of her whole deal, which I know I've described in detail to Amber. She just loves to try to criticize me. I can't be in her presence for 5 minutes without some kind of verbal attack, usually about my appearance. Today, I actually told her off when she said, "That's an ugly face you just made." Who does that? I called her the b-word and said she was ugly all the time. I know. I just can't resist becoming a 10 year-old again when it comes to her.
It's nothing new that I dislike her. I can't remember ever liking her, but of course, I can only remember back to about age four. Obviously, I just can't be around her, but it can't be avoided this month, and that's mostly why I'm dreading it. For the first time, I just want to stay home.
But I won't.
All of my familial relationships feel strained right now. There's Dee's homelessness, of course. Then it's Megan's devotion to her worthless boyfriend, and the low point to which it has dragged her. When it comes to Dad and Tonice and their kids, they just aren't fun to be around anymore. Tonice is perpetually drained, and my dad is, as always completely withdrawn. Steven, Teddie, Taylor, and Stephanie are just teenagers now. Enough said.
That just brings me to Wendy, the crowning jewel of it all. When she moved into her new house, I thought it'd be a pretty good idea to gather there this year instead of crowding everyone into my tiny living room. That'd be great, but lately I just cannot stand her. Somehow, despite being dirt poor only a few years ago, she seems to have become quite the snob this year. I first noticed this when she called to ask for ideas on what to buy so-and-so for Christmas. Every suggestion I made could only be totally inappropriate, like this: it's not ok to buy someone a shirt. Don't you know that you have to buy them a whole outfit? Or, a scarf, hat, and gloves is something a person should get as a stocking stuffer, not a real gift. Well, excuse the heck out of me, but I thought you just went with anything you thought they'd like, whatever it may be. Hopefully, a dvd and $25 gift card are acceptable, or I'm out of luck. And then what about the gifts I got for her kids? It's not that I feel they aren't good enough. If I did I could just take them back and get something else. Her attitude just baffles me and I so resent it.
Besides that, it's just part of her whole deal, which I know I've described in detail to Amber. She just loves to try to criticize me. I can't be in her presence for 5 minutes without some kind of verbal attack, usually about my appearance. Today, I actually told her off when she said, "That's an ugly face you just made." Who does that? I called her the b-word and said she was ugly all the time. I know. I just can't resist becoming a 10 year-old again when it comes to her.
It's nothing new that I dislike her. I can't remember ever liking her, but of course, I can only remember back to about age four. Obviously, I just can't be around her, but it can't be avoided this month, and that's mostly why I'm dreading it. For the first time, I just want to stay home.
But I won't.