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wow. i just read everything that has happened to me. i was so immature so undeveloped so new to the world . i had no idea who i was, what i wanted to do, who i wanted to associate myself with. i was really lost. now i realize how utterly and completly stupid i was. if iw as someone else i would of hated me. drugs? are you kidding me. no 16 year old can handle that. im digusted by everything i read(most of it). i started a new, and my life is completly diffrent. my best friend kassandra has directed me into a really good path. im a happier, healthier, clean, person. and im satisfied with my life and family. i love every day now wether it be, at home alone with mom and kitten or out at lido mingling with kassandras parents friends. i have started my acting classes and im getting really far in them. ive been going to a lot of auditions and my acting coach says i have real potential. living a superficial life may be fun and all, but not for me. im hoping me and kassandra can move to san fran when i get older and just love life. im also going to a new school to start over. i mean its not going to be perfect, but itll be better then where i was at before. im confident in who i am now and happy about my surrondings. sometimes it takes a looooootttt to realize whats going on in your life, but you have to do it. you have to get to the point where you think "what am i doing?" you should always question yourself and the choices you make. oh and as for everybody else my age, go do your drugs, go to your parties, fail in school, but i feel sorry for you because i know where you'll end up. stop the hate, start the love.