May 05, 2006 08:38
What do I do now? Just keep waking up and taking the pill that will heal? Is that all I can do? Do I keep praying and hoping and longing and saying that things will get better?
What if I don't do so well in a few years? And my creativity-will it all be gone? If all my creativity comes from a darker place, will it just disappear when I'm happy? If that is so I don't think that I would actually be happy.
I start taking two pills tomorrow on in the morning and one at night.
I don't have a choice. Its my life I'm talking about and I want know what its like to feel alive again.