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So that awesome night of night biking in the full moon? Yeah, talk about getting sick. I can't breathe through my nose. And I've been sneezing all day. I feel gross.
I feel like everyday I rush and rush from dawn til' dusk. Even though my classes are out at 10 there's always a ridiculous amount of crap that I'm filling in. Hopefully I'll learn to relax but right now I really feel like I'm wearing myself out.
And I've already found a comfort zone in terms of friends. I hang out with the same 3 people all the time pretty much. I just talked to one of them and admitted that I had had a cruch on a guy in our class that we hang out with a lot. the same guy I wrote about before, but that I've been trying really hard to squash it in it's intfancy b/c I know it's not gonna happen. It's so hard to do. But I don't want to mess up the group dynamics/ become obsessively pining over this guy who's supposed to be my friend and surely doesn't even like me like that. That's not what I'm here for.
She said she noticed that I liked him, I hope he didn't notice and think i'm weird. Sometimes I feel like I think I'm weird more than anybody else does. Like everyone can read everything I'm thinking. I really hope they can't. Can you say bi-polar?
I'm tired and sniffly and stressed out and part of me just wants to go to sleep but the other part says, it's friday, go out, meet more people and be yourself. When I start out in new places, I make a choice in the early stages. Either I'm completely myself or I let insecurities set in and it's just a spiral where I go further and further into self-consiousness and stop talking to people. I bet none of you ever knew that about me. that's because you caught me on the good end of the equation.
Well whatever happens is up to me. I just with I had brought a jacket last night! I need a hug.
I feel like everyday I rush and rush from dawn til' dusk. Even though my classes are out at 10 there's always a ridiculous amount of crap that I'm filling in. Hopefully I'll learn to relax but right now I really feel like I'm wearing myself out.
And I've already found a comfort zone in terms of friends. I hang out with the same 3 people all the time pretty much. I just talked to one of them and admitted that I had had a cruch on a guy in our class that we hang out with a lot. the same guy I wrote about before, but that I've been trying really hard to squash it in it's intfancy b/c I know it's not gonna happen. It's so hard to do. But I don't want to mess up the group dynamics/ become obsessively pining over this guy who's supposed to be my friend and surely doesn't even like me like that. That's not what I'm here for.
She said she noticed that I liked him, I hope he didn't notice and think i'm weird. Sometimes I feel like I think I'm weird more than anybody else does. Like everyone can read everything I'm thinking. I really hope they can't. Can you say bi-polar?
I'm tired and sniffly and stressed out and part of me just wants to go to sleep but the other part says, it's friday, go out, meet more people and be yourself. When I start out in new places, I make a choice in the early stages. Either I'm completely myself or I let insecurities set in and it's just a spiral where I go further and further into self-consiousness and stop talking to people. I bet none of you ever knew that about me. that's because you caught me on the good end of the equation.
Well whatever happens is up to me. I just with I had brought a jacket last night! I need a hug.