The past few days of hell...
I’m sorry guys but this is probably going to be an emo entry today. I can’t help it. I’m just sitting here on my bed with my laptop not wanting to go to bed at all tonight. Typing this entry will help time go by and give me something to do. Random crap is probably going to be thrown into this journal too so…have fun reading it….if any of you all do. I only get 1 comment for every entry I put into this stupid journal, even the non-emo ones (thank you David). I don’t know why I even type shit on this thing. The only reason I have for keeping this journal is because of reasons like this where I’m just sitting here with nothing to do waiting for the sun to come up. I might just dump this thing and write my own journal on my computer on word. What the hell right?…..right.
Well anyway, these past couple of days have been pretty stressful, I’ve been worrying about a lot of shit, and I mean some big shit (you definitely don’t want to step in it if you know what I mean). So my car has been my best friend when I’m not with Megan. Just sitting in it driving around makes me feel…..better than if I was out of it I guess is the best way to put it. I feel like nothing can hurt me, I swear it’s the best place to be in the whole world. I guess I’m just weird like that….feeling like my car is the only place I feel I can go when I’m stressed out or thinking about something or I just want to get away. Gah I’m craving my car right now, I might just go sneak out and sit in it with the sun roof open and look at the stars…if there are any out tonight. Gah I’m such a freak.
For Thursday and Friday I was with Scott at the Leesburg store filling in for them since they can’t seem to hold on to their employees. Their manager is a bitch though, she has no employees to work the shifts which means she needs to work them anyway because its her responsibility, even if she has to work 100 hours a week. But no she just HAD to go to the beach with her friends and just HAD to have someone from another store that’s more than an hour away to fill in for her. Whatta biatch. So anyway, we stayed in the Days Inn right around the corner from the mall. I talked with Megan for about 2 hours then Scott and I popped a movie in the xbox and watched that till 4 in the morning. Then we got up at 8 and worked till 5:30pm. But instead of me getting 15 hours worth of pay I’m getting around 32, which is ok.
I’m trying to make my parents happy by spending some time with them since I only have a couple more weeks left at home. I think its working. I try so see Megan every day, I just can’t help but see her as much as I can. My dad might be getting a new job, he’s pretty happy about that, he just wants out from the shit hole he’s in now. I kinda wanna spend more time with my sister. She’s about to be the only child living at home, her big bro is not going to be coming home everyday anymore. I try to be the best role model for her, I think I fail at that though….so I’m gonna try to call her as much as I can while I’m at Mason.
I guess I’ll stop. I have so much more to type about though, but its not worth it if no one reads it anyways so…..peace
Well anyway, these past couple of days have been pretty stressful, I’ve been worrying about a lot of shit, and I mean some big shit (you definitely don’t want to step in it if you know what I mean). So my car has been my best friend when I’m not with Megan. Just sitting in it driving around makes me feel…..better than if I was out of it I guess is the best way to put it. I feel like nothing can hurt me, I swear it’s the best place to be in the whole world. I guess I’m just weird like that….feeling like my car is the only place I feel I can go when I’m stressed out or thinking about something or I just want to get away. Gah I’m craving my car right now, I might just go sneak out and sit in it with the sun roof open and look at the stars…if there are any out tonight. Gah I’m such a freak.
For Thursday and Friday I was with Scott at the Leesburg store filling in for them since they can’t seem to hold on to their employees. Their manager is a bitch though, she has no employees to work the shifts which means she needs to work them anyway because its her responsibility, even if she has to work 100 hours a week. But no she just HAD to go to the beach with her friends and just HAD to have someone from another store that’s more than an hour away to fill in for her. Whatta biatch. So anyway, we stayed in the Days Inn right around the corner from the mall. I talked with Megan for about 2 hours then Scott and I popped a movie in the xbox and watched that till 4 in the morning. Then we got up at 8 and worked till 5:30pm. But instead of me getting 15 hours worth of pay I’m getting around 32, which is ok.
I’m trying to make my parents happy by spending some time with them since I only have a couple more weeks left at home. I think its working. I try so see Megan every day, I just can’t help but see her as much as I can. My dad might be getting a new job, he’s pretty happy about that, he just wants out from the shit hole he’s in now. I kinda wanna spend more time with my sister. She’s about to be the only child living at home, her big bro is not going to be coming home everyday anymore. I try to be the best role model for her, I think I fail at that though….so I’m gonna try to call her as much as I can while I’m at Mason.
I guess I’ll stop. I have so much more to type about though, but its not worth it if no one reads it anyways so…..peace