"Hate the sin, love the sinner" (thats what mom always said)
Ive never actually seen Garden State. But i have heard it is a very good movie.
The night i got into my car crash Lauren was talkin about it. She said there was this part where everything is happening and theres this one guy just sitting there seemingly unaware. Unmoved.
She said she felt like that that night. And when we crashed she was just a little dazed and casually walked out of the car.
Everything is happening around me. I dont know. My life is comming down around me. I dont really want to give specifics but its wierd. Here i am. in the middle. Not doing anything to try to stop it. And not caring that it is happening.
Its not that i dont care... its just that i dont know how to stop it. Over the years the way that i learned to deal was if something hurt you to take it, dust yourself off, and then forgive and forget. I was the follower when i was younger, i was the one everyone picked on, made fun of, and called fat (actually Tub-Of-Lard was a common one from my "friends"). I just learned to deal.
Its just how i learned to be who i am. So it literally confuses me when people dont act the same way. I have to ask myself "why dont they forgive and forget?" and it confuses me.
I dont have an answer to the question i'm not posting. But my life is going down hill, i dont get why, i wouldnt know how to change why, i dont want to hit bottom, but for some reason i dont know how not to.
**** on a side note: My mom always used to tell me to be who i am and people will like me for it. I know who i am... but its not a very good me. I dont know how to be anyone else. I wouldnt know how to try to be anyone else.
I'm not askin anyone to change or anything. I'm just sain that i dont understand.
The night i got into my car crash Lauren was talkin about it. She said there was this part where everything is happening and theres this one guy just sitting there seemingly unaware. Unmoved.
She said she felt like that that night. And when we crashed she was just a little dazed and casually walked out of the car.
Everything is happening around me. I dont know. My life is comming down around me. I dont really want to give specifics but its wierd. Here i am. in the middle. Not doing anything to try to stop it. And not caring that it is happening.
Its not that i dont care... its just that i dont know how to stop it. Over the years the way that i learned to deal was if something hurt you to take it, dust yourself off, and then forgive and forget. I was the follower when i was younger, i was the one everyone picked on, made fun of, and called fat (actually Tub-Of-Lard was a common one from my "friends"). I just learned to deal.
Its just how i learned to be who i am. So it literally confuses me when people dont act the same way. I have to ask myself "why dont they forgive and forget?" and it confuses me.
I dont have an answer to the question i'm not posting. But my life is going down hill, i dont get why, i wouldnt know how to change why, i dont want to hit bottom, but for some reason i dont know how not to.
**** on a side note: My mom always used to tell me to be who i am and people will like me for it. I know who i am... but its not a very good me. I dont know how to be anyone else. I wouldnt know how to try to be anyone else.
I'm not askin anyone to change or anything. I'm just sain that i dont understand.