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The last couple of weeks here have been terrible.
I finished my first class two weeks ago. I got an -A which is good because it will significantly bring up my GPA.
My birthday was also two weeks ago. I had class and did nothing on it, like I usually do. My friend Laura and my roommate Missy were supposed to be throwing me a little shindig. No one's done anything for me on my birthday in 8 years. Consequently I've just stopped caring about them and usually I just spend they day alone in quiet contemplation or something of the sort. This time I actually had hopes something might happen.
Instead the two of them ditched me to go and have a women's night out on the town. They did the one thing to me I hate the most, which is to abandon me. They ignored me.
I should honestly feel terrible for Laura because she basically got fucked up literally, but I'm too pissed at her (despite what happened what happened she still cansiders the night to have been lots of fun which is beyond me) to feel sympathetic for her. I want to feel bad for here, and I'm someone who's always there for people when their don even when no one appreciates me or cares in return (which is statistically 100% of the time), but | just don't feel sympathy for her.
The two of them have completely forgotten about me having had a birthdday or that they had intended to do something for me. Anytime I have hopes for anything good in my life things get ruined. This why I don't anyone. This why I don't count on anyone but myself. No one cares. No one here notices or cares that I've been depressed. They're all daft fucks.
I've been depressed, bored and lonely. The two of them (who sarted haning out with each other because of me) go off on there own with out me ignoring me completely. I've got nothing to do anmymore because they're the only fucking people around.
I finished my first class two weeks ago. I got an -A which is good because it will significantly bring up my GPA.
My birthday was also two weeks ago. I had class and did nothing on it, like I usually do. My friend Laura and my roommate Missy were supposed to be throwing me a little shindig. No one's done anything for me on my birthday in 8 years. Consequently I've just stopped caring about them and usually I just spend they day alone in quiet contemplation or something of the sort. This time I actually had hopes something might happen.
Instead the two of them ditched me to go and have a women's night out on the town. They did the one thing to me I hate the most, which is to abandon me. They ignored me.
I should honestly feel terrible for Laura because she basically got fucked up literally, but I'm too pissed at her (despite what happened what happened she still cansiders the night to have been lots of fun which is beyond me) to feel sympathetic for her. I want to feel bad for here, and I'm someone who's always there for people when their don even when no one appreciates me or cares in return (which is statistically 100% of the time), but | just don't feel sympathy for her.
The two of them have completely forgotten about me having had a birthdday or that they had intended to do something for me. Anytime I have hopes for anything good in my life things get ruined. This why I don't anyone. This why I don't count on anyone but myself. No one cares. No one here notices or cares that I've been depressed. They're all daft fucks.
I've been depressed, bored and lonely. The two of them (who sarted haning out with each other because of me) go off on there own with out me ignoring me completely. I've got nothing to do anmymore because they're the only fucking people around.