So can i PIMP again or what......?
My heart lies broken on the floor in a million billion pieces, but still bleeding all the less. Sometimes I still think it was my fault. Take the blame and put it all behind me.....................UNTIL TODAY....................................... This little bitch thinks he can break me down. Already moved in with another girl and ready to "move on" with his "life". Whatevezzzz....I beat myself up over it and thought I'd never be happy with another person. ( I'm talking about Jovi) And I knew I wouldn't be happy with Mike because I thought that I would hurt him. Well, I knew that I would hurt him. So I had to let him go. Besides I didn't think the boy could handle me. And I was still stuck on Jovi, I knew my heart wasn't anywhere near Calallen. I tried so hard to make it work. But even Jovi's REAL mom told me that I was too good for him and that he was practically running a whore house at his grandma's because she saw so many girls in and out of that house in one day! I was appalled and hurt and angry. He was lucky I didn't get hold of him that day. But i still tried. I wanted him to change for me so badly it hurt. I even prayed about him. But in the end I knew it was a lost cause. And as I try to move on I think about him less and less everyday. I can actually say his name now without crying. I can't believe another guy ran me into the ground. I am certainly not letting this happen again!!!! I AM ASHLEY MUTHA FUCKIN RAMOS! LOL!!!
And I think it is about time to start PIMPIN again. (Actually it was time last Tuesday at Bobaruba's!) HOLLA....where I met a HOTT guy there that my friends from Orange Grove knew, ( yeah I am hangin with OG people but not doing the drugs...yay) Well, he is a Marine and is so sweet and hott and ballin and sweet and sexy and he even has a nice voice. I say this because he is already in Cali. getting ready to go to Iraq. So all we can do is get to know eachother on the phone. It is great because I have this anticipation of our first date that will come in March when he gets back. And our first kiss too. OH MY OH MY how hard I fall!!!! I think this guy is so gonna help me take my mind off of what's his name...lol...jovi! when i get pics of my new guy (NICK) i will learn how to post a pic and i will post it fa sho!
And I think it is about time to start PIMPIN again. (Actually it was time last Tuesday at Bobaruba's!) HOLLA....where I met a HOTT guy there that my friends from Orange Grove knew, ( yeah I am hangin with OG people but not doing the drugs...yay) Well, he is a Marine and is so sweet and hott and ballin and sweet and sexy and he even has a nice voice. I say this because he is already in Cali. getting ready to go to Iraq. So all we can do is get to know eachother on the phone. It is great because I have this anticipation of our first date that will come in March when he gets back. And our first kiss too. OH MY OH MY how hard I fall!!!! I think this guy is so gonna help me take my mind off of what's his name...lol...jovi! when i get pics of my new guy (NICK) i will learn how to post a pic and i will post it fa sho!