"When you climaxed, did you scream, 'O! Naboooo!'?"
I'm wallowing because I fucked up yet again.
I'm so fucking tired of being a fuck-up. I'm so fucking tired of having focusing problems. I'm so pissed off at myself right now, I seriously don't know what to do. I have so much riding on me, I'm only the second person in this generation of my family to go to college so far and I have to do freaking well and I'm just so fucking pissed at myself! I'm lazy and I'm fucking up! I'm not reading, and I'm focusing on sex and getting sick all the time and I'm just so fucking pissed!
I mean, seriously! When did I get this stupid? When did I turn into this other person. I don't like this person! When did I turn into this neurotic crazy mofo who talks to boys for seven hours straight on the telephone instead of sleeping or who actually turns in his shit or who actually, I don't know, goes to class?
Oh I swear, if I were not me, I'd be kicking my ass I'm so pissed off at myself. Its a rather disconcerting feeling.
I mean, what the fuck?! I'm getting fat. I'm breaking out all the time. My hair is beyond help. I (still) don't have a car - that I know of. I missed out on freaking easy points in not one, not two, but three of my four classes this week! What. The. Hell.
What happened to me? I'm never never never going to be able to get into med school at this rate! I'm even skimping out on my newspaper duties. Wtf?!
... And that's that.
Peace, love and frogs to you all.
I'm so fucking tired of being a fuck-up. I'm so fucking tired of having focusing problems. I'm so pissed off at myself right now, I seriously don't know what to do. I have so much riding on me, I'm only the second person in this generation of my family to go to college so far and I have to do freaking well and I'm just so fucking pissed at myself! I'm lazy and I'm fucking up! I'm not reading, and I'm focusing on sex and getting sick all the time and I'm just so fucking pissed!
I mean, seriously! When did I get this stupid? When did I turn into this other person. I don't like this person! When did I turn into this neurotic crazy mofo who talks to boys for seven hours straight on the telephone instead of sleeping or who actually turns in his shit or who actually, I don't know, goes to class?
Oh I swear, if I were not me, I'd be kicking my ass I'm so pissed off at myself. Its a rather disconcerting feeling.
I mean, what the fuck?! I'm getting fat. I'm breaking out all the time. My hair is beyond help. I (still) don't have a car - that I know of. I missed out on freaking easy points in not one, not two, but three of my four classes this week! What. The. Hell.
What happened to me? I'm never never never going to be able to get into med school at this rate! I'm even skimping out on my newspaper duties. Wtf?!
... And that's that.
Peace, love and frogs to you all.