So there...
Kinda like a cloud i was up way up in the sky
and i was feeling some feelings you wouldn't believe
Sometimes i don't believe them myself
and i decided i was never coming down
Just then a tiny little dot caught my eye
It was just about too small to see
but i watched it way too long
...and that dot was pulling me down
I hate my body. I really do. I hate the feeling I have when I look in the mirror. I hate knowing that when I get up, I will eventually have to see myself...no tears could ever change that. No goal can ever change my slightly-off-center eyebrows, my disproportioned nose, my crooked mouth or bluish-greenish-brownish muddy eyes. I used to try to look better, wear makeup, get my hair done.
I realize that there's no helping me. I want to be someone, anyone...anyone but me. I want a perfect body, a nice smile, beautiful eyes. I want someone to hold onto me for a few more seconds because they want to. Not beacause they feel sorry for me, not because I'm crying, but just because they want to. I want someone to make me smile the way I used to smile freely.
My life is scattered in pieces, and they don't fit to make a picture...at least not yet. I'm so high yet so low. So happy, but so incredibly sad. So hopeful, so stuck in dispair. I wish someone could change that for me.
and i was feeling some feelings you wouldn't believe
Sometimes i don't believe them myself
and i decided i was never coming down
Just then a tiny little dot caught my eye
It was just about too small to see
but i watched it way too long
...and that dot was pulling me down
I hate my body. I really do. I hate the feeling I have when I look in the mirror. I hate knowing that when I get up, I will eventually have to see myself...no tears could ever change that. No goal can ever change my slightly-off-center eyebrows, my disproportioned nose, my crooked mouth or bluish-greenish-brownish muddy eyes. I used to try to look better, wear makeup, get my hair done.
I realize that there's no helping me. I want to be someone, anyone...anyone but me. I want a perfect body, a nice smile, beautiful eyes. I want someone to hold onto me for a few more seconds because they want to. Not beacause they feel sorry for me, not because I'm crying, but just because they want to. I want someone to make me smile the way I used to smile freely.
My life is scattered in pieces, and they don't fit to make a picture...at least not yet. I'm so high yet so low. So happy, but so incredibly sad. So hopeful, so stuck in dispair. I wish someone could change that for me.